young and inaction

Chapter 49

"What's the matter, let's talk." Fang Chuan took off his coat and hung it on the back of the chair.The weather this year is colder than in previous years, and some people even rumor that it will snow this year.

The restaurant was properly heated, but Lu Xichou didn't feel it. He sat opposite Fang Chuan, staring at the water droplets in the sparkling water without saying a word.

He can probably guess that it's almost inseparable. Lu Xichou came out to talk about Lin Xingxiu.A few days after Lin Xingxiu was transferred to the nursing home, Fang Chuan visited him and accidentally saw a brand new medical record.

The piano in the corner is an old man with white hair, and the violin next to him is black hair. The previous piece is a bit cheerful, and the old and the young are enjoying the performance with smiles on their faces.

The next song is soothing, the old man closed his eyes, Lu Xichou looked away and said, "I'm sorry."

Lu Xichou didn't know why he asked Fang Chuan to say sorry, he just felt that he had betrayed Lin Xingxiu, and he hated the promise that Lin Xingxiu only had to trust him.

"Tsk, you don't need to tell me that." Fang Chuan took a sip of the wine, his alcohol level was a little high, and said with lame eyebrows: "Do you know why I laughed that day?"

"Now I know." Lu Xichou picked up the wine glass and poured it down his throat into his stomach, burning hot.

"Are you only 17 now? I am so much older than you, and I dare not promise someone like you. I know, you are young and vigorous, and you think youth should be vigorous and frank, but you have I never thought about it, what if you can't do it?" Fang Chuan looked at Lu Xichou and said.

Both of them didn't move the dishes on the table, Lu Xichou shook the one in his hand, took a sip and said, "I...I was also in a difficult time...My fault, I shouldn't..."

During the interval between the piano changing, the entire restaurant was very quiet. Night had already fallen, and the neon lights had been protruding into the dark night. Fang Chuan interrupted him and said, "You are right here."

Lu Xichou looked at Fang Chuan upon hearing this, his eyes were full of doubts, he opened his mouth, but didn't say a word.

"It was your fault that you should not have met Lin Xingxiu." Fang Chuan said indifferently.

Your mistake is that you shouldn't have met Lin Xingxiu... you shouldn't have met Lin Xingxiu... you shouldn't have met...

These words pierced into his ears, like echoes, rippling in his mind, his vision began to blur, he couldn't count the number of times this was the first time he cried.

"I didn't want to say it at first, but now that everyone is here, let's say it... You know that Lin Xingxiu had autism, but now he not only has autism, but also depression."

Fang Chuan's voice fell, the obviously small voice sounded like shouting in Lu Xichou's ear, he put down the wine glass abruptly, with too much force, it shattered in his hand.

"Depression? No, it's impossible, it's impossible. Could it be that my dad also bribed you to persuade me to give up..." Lu Xichou said with a smile, but he had a guilty conscience. Just how fragmented.

There had just been a little "little accident" at the next table, the woman pushed the key towards the man in front of him, argued a few words, and left.The man grabbed the key into his palm and stuck it to his chest.

The man walked towards the old man at the piano, pulled his tie, and sat down in front of the piano.The old man said something to the violin, seeing him nodding, his expression naturally became serious.

The piano prelude sounded, and the violin joined in at the right time. Lu Xichou heard the man looking directly at the piano.

This song is "Atimeforus". Once when Lu Xichou was practicing in the piano room, he wanted to show off his skills to Lin Xingxiu - he can also play the piano.This is the score on the piano. He didn't like it very much, but Lin Xingxiu asked him what it was after he played the last note.

Fang Chuan didn't know what he thought of, reality is reality, your choice is to face or escape.He knocked on the table and brought Lu Xichou back to reality: "You have to face the truth, Lin Xingxiu is too skinny now."

This sentence poked his heart, and he suddenly felt wrong, and asked, "How is it possible? My dad asked my aunt to cook for him."

He really didn't expect that some things were beyond his expectation.

"Will he eat when he has food?" Fang Chuan felt a little ridiculous, looked at the time boredly and said, "He is not what I wanted to see that day, nor is it what you expected. This is reality. I will see him tomorrow." There's still class, let's go first."

The man in front of the piano got up, gave the old man some consumption and disappeared outside the door. Fang Chuan put on his coat and reminded: "Don't drink too much, no one will take you home."

"Can I go to see Lin Xingxiu?" Lu Xichou asked knowingly, of course he couldn't, if he went there and violated Lu Yang's contract for a long time, he was just looking for an excuse.

Fang Chuan rubbed his brows and smiled and said, "What do you ask me? It's up to you whether you go or not, but I still think that if you don't go anymore, it's not good for both of you, especially Lin Xingxiu... is gone."

The so-called people take tea cold.Lu Xichou sat in the restaurant until very late, he didn't know how to face Lin Xingxiu, why was Lin Xingxiu suffering from depression?

After drinking the last bottle, he was still sober. It reminded him of Lin Xingxiu when he was drunk, and the corners of his lips curled up involuntarily. He hugged his head and smiled and cried until the waiter reminded him that the ocean time was approaching.

Being able to take a taxi shows that you are still sensible.

The sanatorium is located on a hill in the suburbs, it should be the most upscale one in the city, everything is normal, only Lin Xingxiu seems out of place here.

The temperature outside the suburbs is a few degrees lower than that in the urban area, but the wind blows people peacefully.Lin Xingxiu was wearing home clothes and a coat, standing in the garden, as he often did, the direction of B612 could be seen here, and the aura of Lu Xichou might still be there.

Most of the people living in the nursing home are elderly people, and there are only a handful of younger people. Even in the daytime, few people walk around. Some of them are paralyzed, and some are unconscious, so they can only stay in the hospital bed.

Lin Xingxiu looked at the score in his hand, he asked Lu Xichou for it that day.

Although Romeo and Juliet is a tragedy, everything follows nature and is selected by nature, and everything has its own law of survival.

He just sat there in a daze every day, watching people come to visit the patients here, how he wished that Lu Xichou could also visit him, even if he took a quick look through the tall iron gate.

A foreign nurse often asked him why he always looked out the window, and Lin Xingxiu would always say in English: "I am waiting for someone to come back."

He walked into the wall of the nursing home and reached out to touch the cold wall. He didn't know that on the other side, the person he was waiting for was also touching the wall, crying silently.

Lu Xichou looked at the wall in front of him, it was cold, it even made him shiver.Is Lin Xingxiu asleep now?He wished he could break through the wall.

He really misses Lin Xingxiu so much, if he can do it all over again, he will never "provoke" Lin Xingxiu again, just stay near Lin Xingxiu, watching him and protecting him.

The watch in his hand was given to him by Lu Xichou. The strap is black, and the electronic dial is engraved with Lu Xichou's name.The watch will strike the hour, and sometimes he hears the reminder of the hour, and he always thinks about what he is doing with Lu Xichou at this hour one day.

Lu Xichou felt that he was hallucinating. He must have missed Lin Xingxiu so much that he hallucinated the hourly time of the electronic watch, maybe it was someone else.

The moonlight illuminated the way for him, he didn't know whether he should go on, returning from the tranquility to the noisy city, Lu Xichou squatted under the street lamp and gave himself a hard punch.

The curtains in the room were opened again, and Lin Xingxiu pulled the curtains tightly, preventing any light from leaking in.He didn't know when, as long as he stayed in the room, he began to hate light again, and even be afraid of light.

The bedside table is full of medicines, both in Chinese and English. He remembers the name of each medicine, and he will try to translate the English ones. During the period, there is a bottle of sleeping pills that is neither Chinese nor English.

He couldn't understand it, and he didn't bother to translate it on the search engine, so he simply named it Day and Night.He felt that sleeping pills were like day and night to him, and now he couldn't tell the difference between day and night, and it didn't matter to him anymore.

The water in the kettle was completely cold. Lin Xingxiu divided the medicine into three parts, each of which would contain various pills. He is now like a medicine swallowing machine. He can no longer tell the medicines in his mouth. It is sweet or bitter.

The watch rang again at the hour, and it was already one o'clock in the morning. Lin Xingxiu was tossing and turning in bed. The personal doctor Lu Yang hired for him told him to try to fall asleep without relying on medicines every night. Never did.

For him, the habit that has been maintained by drugs is like an addict, and it is difficult to quit.He poured a glass of cold water, looked at the pill in his palm, swallowed it lamely, and showed a relieved smile.

He intentionally ate a few more pills this time, maybe he won't need to rely on drugs to maintain it in the future, until he fell asleep, the corners of his mouth were slightly raised.

The author has something to say: "Atimeforus" is an episode of the same name in the 1968 "Romeo and Juliet" movie.

Very nice, when I was in the second grade of junior high school, the single was on loop!