An Qiu

19

People will always experience a lot of pain in this life, parting and reuniting, and time traveling.I experienced in pain, grew up, and went to finish the rest of my life.

I went home, found a good job, and worked hard for a few years with some success.I got married and had children and lived the same life as everyone else, the only difference is that instead of being happy in a complete family, my heart has become more and more numb.When my son calls me, I will also feel happy, but after being happy, I will always be lonely.

When I was 30 years old, I got divorced and lost a sum of money to my ex-wife for a house and endless alimony.

I started a business, numb myself with busyness, and cover up my weakness with success. At the age of 35, I was already successful in my career.

I thought I would never see An Qiu again in this life, but fate is always so wonderful.

Because of an economic forum, I returned to the city full of sadness after a long absence.Luo Wenming is already one of the top bosses in the local area, and his news is everywhere on the Internet.We occasionally contact, are just a few words of greeting.

I called him, and he received me grandly. Food and beauty are all available to us.

I chose a young boy, the boy was drinking and chatting with us all night, and I was in a daze all night.

The wine was a little heavy, so I leaned against the wall and went to the toilet. When I came out, Luo Wenming was smoking at the door, and when he saw me coming out, he handed me one.

We smoked on the terrace, and the cold wind was blowing, and we were mostly sober.

"Comfortable." I sighed.

Luo Wenming looked at me and smiled, didn't speak, and continued to smoke.After smoking one, he said slowly: "It's been 13 years, kid, and I haven't put it down yet."

I smiled and said, "What did the second brother say, I don't understand."

"Just pretend, don't you just have eyes like that person? As for being in a daze all the time?"

Being poked at the center, I shivered suddenly, and said with a wry smile, "That's so obvious."

Luo Wenming patted me on the shoulder and said: "It's all over, fate, there is no more looking for it, why bother yourself."

I said: "Stupid, let's go to the edge of a dead end."

"Heart disease requires heart medicine. Do you still want to see him? I know where he is."

The car shuttled through the darkness, and I felt uneasy, I just hoped to hurry up, as if I was breaking through the darkness to find the long-lost light.I said to myself, this time, I will never let go, never...

After driving for more than an hour, they stopped at the door of a bookstore, which was already closed.

I waited in the car, imagining countless reunion scenes.Luo Wenming took the driver to the footwashing room for sleep and massage. He obviously scoffed at my approach.

I fell asleep in the car until the sound of the roller shutter door woke me up.

I sat up abruptly and looked out the window. An Qiu was sitting in a wheelchair, very close to me.

He looked weak and pale, and he pulled up the thick blanket on his legs in fear of the cold.The face in my dream was so close, I lowered the car window and looked at him across the street.

He looked at me, and I looked at him, as if going back in time and meeting for the first time.

He suddenly raised the corners of his mouth, and I raised the corners of my mouth too. I was about to open the car door when I saw his eyes looking straight ahead, his head slightly turned to the left, and he said with a smile, "It smells so good, mushroom buns."

A man approached him, squatted beside the wheelchair, and stuffed a cup of hot soybean milk into his palm.He raised his right hand and groped in the air to touch the man's face.

"I'm sweating, don't run away, I'm waiting for you."

The man tilted his head and smiled, and I saw that half of his face was a hideous scar left by the fire.

The man injured his vocal cords and couldn't speak clearly. I don't know what he said vaguely. I only saw An Qiu looking forward and listening carefully, sometimes smiling slightly.

An Qiu was blind, I closed the window, huddled in the seat and beat my heart, but still couldn't relieve the unforgettable pain.

I hid myself behind the pale glass, cowardly in the small car.

The man carried An Qiu into the shop, An Qiu was eating breakfast at the counter, and the man squatted aside to arrange the goods on the floor.An Qiu fumbled to feed him from time to time, and the man smiled foolishly.

When Luo Wenming came back, I was crying so hard that I felt like I was dying, my heart was about to burst.

Luo Wenming sighed and said to the driver, "Let's go. Get out of here."

"Duan Yu, some things are like this. If you miss it, you really miss it. You are not the kind of person who is willing to give up your life for love. You and I are the same. In the end, you are all selfish. There is no one caring around you now. No, it's normal. Let's take it easy, at least An Qiu is doing well, so you can feel more at ease, right?"

I nodded, shook my head, and smacked myself with one mouthful after another.

He didn't stop me, it drove me crazy, but it scared the driver a lot.

An Qiu, bless you, bless you.I cried because I regretted it. After half of my life, I realized what was the most precious to me, but I didn't cherish it and lost the opportunity.

We used to hold hands tightly, I let go of you and hurt you.Happiness is not within reach. Happiness is achieved through joint efforts. If I miss it once, I will miss it for the rest of my life...

In this life, your name will be branded on my heart, whether you know it or not, I want to say, I love you.

but……

What's the use of love?If you don't cherish it, no one will wait for you in place...

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