armyinform Chapter 165 Why Should I Be Subject to Your Arrangements?
Chapter 165 Why Should I Be Subject to Your Arrangements?
"You mean, I've always lived in the same world?"
A cold, empty female voice rang out after a moment of silence.
A creaking, mechanical sound: "Logically speaking... that's how it should be."
"Is my fate so easily arranged by you?" Shen Xi's voice suddenly became sharp. "In our initial deal, I wanted my grandmother's well-being, and you wanted the plot to remain stable. Now, this world that has emerged is for you to continue to live."
"And what about me? I've groped my way through life twice in unfamiliar worlds, the first time while suffering from amnesia. Please tell me, what should I do..."
How can I fulfill my own desires...?
Shen Xi felt like she couldn't breathe. She missed her mother-in-law, she missed her friends, but...
But in the world that follows, there are still Jiang Ci and Jiang Du.
She couldn't bear to part with it either.
The mechanical voice seemed to fall silent for a moment, then softened, "I'm sorry, my heroine. I cannot merge the two worlds. I will gather as much energy as I can to send you back to one of them."
"One is your mother-in-law's world, and the other is six years from now in this world."
……
"How did you get so thin?"
A faint sigh rang in Shen Xi's ears.
She struggled to open her eyes, and the light from the slit illuminated the figure in front of her. Jiang Ci, who was somewhere between a boy and a man, had dark stubble on his chin and looked very tired, with droopy eyelids.
"You...you're awake."
When Jiang Ci saw that Shen Xi was awake, a sense of relief flashed through his heart. However, he still felt a lingering fear that she might fall asleep peacefully and never wake up again.
Old Yan said that Shen Xi had no will to live in his subconscious.
That moment was like a bolt from the blue.
What he didn't know was that she might not have lacked the will to survive.
Shen Xi is too tired.
From the initial time travel to the subsequent revelation of various secrets and truths, she is now forced to make a choice between two options.
She was so exhausted that she gave up on herself. No matter who she chose, it seemed like she was abandoning her family.
Before Shen Xi woke up, she was unusually depressed and frustrated. She thought that if she had just disappeared, she wouldn't have to face these heartless choices.
She had no doubt that any choice she made would make her regret it.
In the decades to come, there will be times when she regrets and cannot let go. She is a person who suffers from internal conflict, and she cannot bear such a heavy choice.
She suddenly felt a cold touch, and indifferently looked up to see Jiang Ci pursing his lips as he felt her body temperature.
"You've been asleep for three or four days, receiving IV fluids all this time. How about you eat some liquid food later?"
Jiang Ci felt a pang of sadness looking at her cold face and coaxed her to eat.
What do you like to eat?
"How about you have some millet porridge? Just a little bit."
"You can also eat some diced radish if you like."
He rarely held Shen Xi so tightly, lowering his head and rubbing his face against Shen Xi's soft hair.
Shen Xi lowered her eyes and listened to Jiang Ci's words. The suffocating feeling that made her feel like she couldn't breathe returned instantly.
Suddenly, tears welled up in Shen Xi's eyes. She quickly pushed Jiang Ci away, clutching her chest and gasping for breath, but it still felt like someone was choking her, making it impossible to breathe. That feeling of helplessness did not dissipate at all. Then, the headache suddenly felt like being stabbed in the head, a splitting pain.
Finally, after a very long time, the tinnitus gradually dissipated, and the doctor in the white coat in front of her guided her to breathe slowly.
Shen Xi took a breath in rhythm and slowly calmed down, her wet hair sticking to her forehead and temples.
The doctor smiled gently at her, "How are you feeling now?"
Shen Xi closed her eyes and didn't reply.
Jiang Ci stood by the door with his eyes downcast, an invisible shadow enveloping him.
"It's okay. If you don't feel like talking, take a break and try to maintain a cheerful mood every day."
Just as the doctor saw that the patient didn't seem to intend to speak, he was about to turn and leave.
Shen Xi suddenly spoke up: "Doctor, am I sick?"
The doctor seemed momentarily at a loss, "You didn't..."
"Okay, I understand. Thank you for your hard work."
She leaned against the soft pillows, her face pale, her gaze unfocused, staring at a single point.
After the doctor left, Jiang Ci stood quietly at the door, neither following the doctor out nor rushing in.
A barely perceptible sadness flickered in his eyes.
"Jiang Ci, why don't you go sit outside for a while? I want to be alone for a bit."
After a moment of silence, Shen Xi spoke first.
Her voice was a little hoarse, and when she spoke, it sounded like smoke.
"it is good"
Jiang Ci blinked slowly at her, then went out, turned around, and closed the door.
The moment Jiang Ci stepped out the door, Shen Xi gritted her teeth, tears streaming down her face, her teeth chattering, and sobs escaped her lips.
Afraid that the people outside the door would hear, she bit her arm hard until she tasted the metallic, bloody flavor in her mouth and realized that she had bitten it open.
outside the door,
Jiang Ci didn't leave for a moment. He was completely devoid of his usual high spirits and sat dejectedly on the floor, leaning against the door.
When he heard the faint sounds coming from inside, he felt a cool sensation on his cheek.
Water droplets landed on his hand, and he touched his face blankly.
Why is he crying?
……
Shen Xi moved out of the dormitory, and in the end, Jiang Ci handled the formalities.
Since it was inconvenient for him to enter the girls' dormitory, he eventually decided to drive back to his house outside T University.
This house was bought for Shen Xi a long time ago, but she has never lived in it.
This time, Jiang Ci forced Shen Xi to complete the procedures for staying overnight outside the home.
This is a high-end apartment; the place is very quiet and the environment is quite nice.
Jiang Ci drove to the building, but didn't get out of the car. He took out a cigarette but didn't light it, just held it between his fingers, his deep, dark eyes gazing into the distance.
About five minutes later, he drove back to the underground parking lot, took off his coat, and went inside.
"I'm back," he said to the people inside with a smile.
Shen Xi, who had been sitting on the blanket in a daze at home, slowly spoke up: "Welcome home."
Jiang Ci casually draped his coat over the hanger, walked step by step to Shen Xi, and gently kissed her cheek. He held her shoulders tightly, his voice hoarse and deep, half-coaxing and half-seduce, "Be good, open your mouth."
Shen Xi smelled the car perfume that the man on her was wearing, which was her favorite scent.
She took a light sniff, letting Jiang Ci do as he pleased.
Recently, whenever Jiang Ci is home, he pulls her aside to kiss, something that rarely happened before.
His kisses were sometimes gentle, sometimes urgent, plundering the fortress that Shen Xi had defended.
When he came back today, he kissed her with unusual urgency. He carefully explored every little detail of her body. When Shen Xi's waist was about to break from being half-pressed on the sofa, Jiang Ci picked her up, spread her legs, and straddled her.
For the first time, Shen Xi felt something hard pressing against her stomach.
Shen Xi blushed deeply as Jiang Ci held her waist and kissed her. Even when Jiang Ci finally released her, she took two deep breaths as if she were short of oxygen.
She reached out and touched Jiang Ci's stiff waist, giving it a hard pinch. "Stop right there! Put me down!!!"
Jiang Ci's long eyelashes fluttered and brushed against Shen Xi's face. Shen Xi slowly revealed an expression of unbearable ticklishness.
Jiang Ci looked at her reddened ear tips and gently lowered his head to kiss her earlobe.