waste heat

Chapter 65

Cheng Yan slowly let go of his hand, lowered his eyes, and repeated without further explanation: "We don't want to be together anymore."

In fact, he never thought that he would say this to Song Yu in this life, but the plan always failed to keep up with the changes, as if he wanted to spend the rest of his life with Song Yu at the first sight, and it didn't delay them from reaching this point.

Cheng Yan doesn't dare to be so reckless now, he has learned to be cautious, the most important lesson life has taught him is that he can no longer be so naive.

Song Yu didn't know what he was thinking, this sentence came out of Cheng Yan's mouth, he didn't know how to react, his brain went blank for a moment, he couldn't think of any decent words, Song Yu kept bending over to get close to Cheng Yan Yan's movements froze for a while and asked, "Why?"

Cheng Yan turned to the beginning, and he could still feel Song Yu's faint breath, Cheng Yan said in a low voice: "It's nothing, I suddenly thought about it."

Song Yu clenched his fists, not understanding what he meant when he suddenly thought about it. This was the opposite of his behavior before he fainted. He was completely unprepared. Hearing what Cheng Yan said, Song Yu explained in a flustered tone: "No, Cheng Yan, what I said before was stupid, I didn't really want to separate from you..."

"Maybe," Cheng Yan said, "I know you like me."

Song Yu didn't quite understand the situation: "What do you mean?"

He knew he liked him, why did he break up?Does he hate himself?His words were all stupid, he thought it through, but Cheng Yan's face now... Song Yu couldn't possibly think that he was joking.

Cheng Yan said: "I like you too, the same, I am separated from you, as you said, you will bring me harm."

Song Yu didn't even blink his eyes, just looked at Cheng Yan stupidly, was hurt by his words or something, in short, Cheng Yan overturned his words, did he get scared all of a sudden?Do you think he's scary?

Cheng Yan raised his head, his eyes fell on Song Yu's tall nose, his dejected eyes were not angry, he said: "Now I am the one who wants to say sorry to you, let's separate first, Song Yu."

He bit his name clearly and separated, that tone has clearly drawn the relationship between the two.

Song Yu had nothing to say. He stood in front of the hospital bed, looked at Cheng Yan, and had many questions, but after the answer came out, he didn't know what to ask.

"Can I trouble you to call my dad?" Cheng Yan didn't seem to be affected, he suddenly raised this irrelevant question, and continued under Song Yu's enthusiastic gaze: "Let him pick me up, I don't like spending the night in the hospital."

Song Yu didn't speak, he just stared at Cheng Yan quietly, Cheng Yan knew that he was still looking at him, the atmosphere in the ward was anxious, the silence of two people was a dispute, it was much more terrifying than arguing .

Song Yu turned around and walked out.

The moment he turned around, Cheng Yan was finally willing to raise his head to see the tall and slender figure drifting away.

The salt water has not been finished yet, but the smell in the hospital is really bad, and the smell of medicine in bottles and cans makes it difficult to sleep.

Song Yu didn't come back after going out, and the next person to enter the ward was his father, and he really did him the last favor.

Cheng Yan packed up his things and wanted to pull out the unfinished salt water. Fortunately, Dad Cheng saw it and didn't let him pull it out. Instead, he carried the salt water on the road. The car drove very slowly. Cheng Yan didn't reply a word.

"I haven't seen Song Yu, where is Song Yuren?" Dad Cheng asked, "He called me, but I didn't see him when he came."

There was silence in the carriage, and the pale face of the co-pilot Cheng Yan was reflected in the rearview mirror. He didn't respond to Dad Cheng's words, so Dad Cheng said, "Uncomfortable?"

Cheng Yan said in a hoarse voice, "I'm sleepy."

Dad Cheng said: "Then I'll drive faster, you can sleep in the passenger seat, I'll call you later."

"It's okay, I can last until home." He is not sleepy, not sleepy at all, and his mind is extraordinarily clear, otherwise he would not be able to make such a rational decision, he likes to mess around, and when others don't want him, he also wants to beg others to want him .

That's not good at all.

He doesn't like one person's unrequited love. If this relationship doesn't go both ways, then sooner or later his one-person persistence will lose to that deliberate indifference.

Ask yourself, he is brave enough, but he doesn't like enough people, so the long-term pain is worse than the short-term pain. Now it's just the beginning, and it's easy to end...

When I got home, Mama Cheng stood in the living room with her coat on and waited. When she saw Cheng Yan coming back with a drip, don't mention Mama Cheng's opinion, "What's wrong? His face is so pale."

"It's okay, mom," Cheng Yan smiled. My mother is not as big-hearted as my father. My mother is too careful. He didn't want her to sleep badly. gone."

"It's pretty much the same, look at your face, it's as white as a ghost," Cheng Ma hurried into the kitchen, "Wait a minute, I'll make you a bowl of hot soup before going to sleep."

"Mom, what time is it now, don't do it."

"Quickly, 5 minutes, don't sleep."

Cheng Yan wanted to go back to his room to sleep, he wasn't hungry at all, but the commotion in the kitchen had already started, he couldn't close his eyes right now.

Closing is also a doze, he had enough sleep in the hospital.

Cheng Yan returned to the room, and his father walked in, took something to put a salt water bottle for him, adjusted the speed, turned the salt water bottle and asked, "Do you feel uncomfortable?"

Cheng Yan shook his head: "It's not uncomfortable."

Dad Cheng put down his hands after making adjustments, and did not leave immediately. He looked down at Cheng Yan who was sitting on the sofa, "Are you having a conflict with Song Yu?"

Cheng Yan touched his hand that was stuck with medical tape, "No."

"No?" Cheng's father said sharply, "If he didn't, he wouldn't send you back? I didn't even see him when I went today."

"He has his own business."

"what's up?"

"I do not know."

Father Cheng still asked, but Mother Cheng came in with hot soup, and the spoon hit the bowl with a crisp sound, Mother Cheng told him, "Drink it quickly."

Cheng Yan sat up straight, holding a spoon. He wasn't hungry, but he could still drink a bowl of hot soup. Cheng Yan turned to look at his parents, "Mom, go to bed first."

Cheng Ma frowned and said, "How can I sleep with you like this?"

After speaking, he said to Dad Cheng: "Go to sleep, I'm here."

Dad Cheng was able to sleep, and said, "Okay, I have a meeting tomorrow morning, so I'll go first, you have a day off tomorrow, and you look at him at home with a pale face."

Cheng Yan touched his forehead, "No."

Cheng Ma urged, "Go to sleep."

Cheng's father left, and only Cheng's mother and Cheng Yan were left in the room. Cheng Yan didn't want his mother to accompany him, looked at him, and said, "Mom, go to sleep, how can I be so delicate?"

"I'll go after you finish hanging the water." Cheng Ma touched the salt water bottle and told Cheng Yan to drink the soup quickly.

"I'll fill you with water later, so you can take a hot bath before going to bed." My mother is considerate, even though she usually dislikes Cheng Yan, Cheng Yan always knows that his mother's heart is all about him and this family.

After finishing speaking, Cheng's mother asked about tonight's events again, Cheng Yan made up things, didn't tell the story of standing in the rain, but said that she caught a cold after getting caught in the rain.

"How old are you, can you learn to take care of yourself?" Cheng's mother worried: "After that, your father and I will not be here. What do you do? Who do you expect to take care of you?"

"I'm just sick. I haven't been sick for a long time."

"Why, are you still proud?" Cheng Ma rolled her eyes, "I think your cold is mild."

Cheng Yan drank the hot soup sullenly, and didn't reply. He responded a few times just because he didn't want his mother to worry too much. His real mood now was that he didn't want to say a word.

"I'll put hot water for you, take a bath before you sleep, it's comfortable." Cheng Ma walked out, and Cheng Yan didn't even have a chance to veto it.

After all these tossing, I don't know what time it is. After taking a bath, Cheng Yan went back to the room and closed the door. It had just rained heavily and the room was cold and damp. Cheng Yan closed the window tightly, opened the curtains, and went back to the bed, wanting to put Listening to the song, he did exactly that.

In fact, breaking up is not as terrible as he imagined. In fact, he doesn't have to be someone, does he?Song Yu doesn't like him that much, and he doesn't like Song Yu that much either.

He thought so, but after listening to the music for too long, staying alone for too long, and the sound of the rain outside complementing the scenery, he was really sad.

There is a process, anyway, he is not the only one who will fall in love in this world, anyway, it is just... happy for a while, he did not have Song Yu in the first place, and he should be satisfied with the short time he had.

I used to hear people in my family say that the people we talked about in school could not reach the end. At that time, I was very puzzled by such words. Whether it was out of rebellion or he thought so, he felt that love in school was the best A love is a love that can go to the end.

Because after entering the society, there will be more things to worry about and consider. At that time, the two will be separated due to some external factors. Whether you can get to the end is an important factor.

He originally thought that he and Song Yu were the same and would not have so many differences, but now he no longer dares to pretend to know anyone or be the same as anyone. The other half of his soul has never been compatible and hard to find. Failed, nothing to regret, nothing...

There will be a bright future in the future, and more people will meet, he will live well, and so will he.

What time is it now?Everyone who should be asleep is asleep, right?It is not recommended to think wildly by yourself, Cheng Yan pulled his lips and laughed, thinking how could he become a sentimental person?No wonder Zhao Yibai said he was sensitive, but how did he discover those things if he was not sensitive?How could insensitivity come to this point with Song Yu?There are good and bad.

Cheng Yan got out of bed and was going to turn off the lights, but before his feet landed, he saw the tattoo on his ankle and stopped.

When he got this tattoo, he was the one who asked Song Yu to go with him with clumsy reasons. If Song Yu didn't know his intentions, he should understand the string of English he wanted to tattoo, right?He said he liked himself a long time ago, how early?

The mobile phone rang untimely, interrupting Cheng Yan's deep thoughts alone. He turned his head, retracted his legs, one leg was crossed on the bed, and when he saw the caller, he stopped his next move.

He didn't sleep either.

Cheng Yan's great enlightenment just now collapsed in an instant, the corners of his eyes turned red, there was nothing but a phone call, and his eyes turned red in disappointment.

The phone rang for a long time, Cheng Yan seemed to have forgotten to answer it, he was mentally preparing, he didn't know whether to answer the call, he didn't know if they should still contact.

He thought very clearly, before this call came.

The call that has not been hung up proves the caller's persistence. Cheng Yan has no choice but to answer this call. He rubbed the corners of his eyes, adjusted his voice, and made himself sound less vulnerable.

No one spoke, and the silent voice echoed Cheng Yan's weak panting. Although no one spoke, they all knew that the other party was listening.

In the past, Cheng Yan was used to taking the initiative. No matter when and where, he was the one who took the initiative. Before being with Song Yu, he took concrete actions for his love. He is not a coward who only knows how to play with secret love. He was extremely brave in liking Song Yu, but the courage and initiative now dissipated tonight when the relationship was stopped.

Cheng Yan didn't make a sound, saying that he did it on purpose, or he didn't know what to say, but it would be tiring to take the initiative for a long time, he thought, so what if he didn't take the initiative?Taking the initiative is the ending, what about not taking the initiative?

In the end, it was Song Yu who broke the silence. His first sentence was a polite greeting, asking if he was home. When Cheng Yan said it, both of them were concise and to the point, without a word of nonsense. This second sentence is the purpose of tonight , is the meaning of this call.

Song Yu asked: "Are we done?"

Cheng Yan cherished his words like gold: "Yes."

There was another silence, neither of the two sides stopped thinking, one was thinking about what to say next, and the other was thinking about what he would say next, Song Yu waited for a while and said, "I'll ask you again, why?"

Then the answer must be puzzling. There are so many incomprehensible things in this world. There are no different things that you can't understand. Cheng Yan said: "It's just like I said, I'm afraid of you, I'm afraid of you I am sick, I am afraid that you will disturb my life, I am afraid that you will hurt me, I am afraid that you will look like a ghost, don't you think so?"

Song Yu lowered his voice, as if he knew that this was not the real answer, he denied it: "Cheng Yan, don't be angry with me, for the last time, I will ask you again, why?"

Good last time, Cheng Yan didn't want to chat with him all night about this issue, how could he express that he would understand?After thinking about it, Cheng Yan condensed his words and expressed his ebbing thoughts: "Deputy team, I don't want to like you anymore."

The sound of the rain outside became quieter, and Cheng Yan's words echoed in the room, enough for the person on the other end of the phone to hear without hindrance.

What did Song Yu think? Cheng Yan didn't know, he only heard his heavy breathing, and then Song Yu asked: "Okay, then I want to ask, does breaking up require both of them to nod to be called the real end?"

Cheng Yan remained silent, not because he agreed, but because he just wanted to know what Song Yu wanted to say.

However, his words are destined to make him sleepless all night, Cheng Yan should never have done that, just to hear these words, is to connect this phone call.

Song Yu said loudly: "Then listen up, Cheng Yan, I don't accept your proposal to break up."

After Song Yu finished speaking, he repeated these four words emphatically: "I don't accept it."

I have never seen Song Yu who is messing around before, will he play tricks too?Normally, I would find it amazed and funny, but not tonight, today is a serious night, Cheng Yan did not indulge himself at all, and said coldly: "Why?"

"Because I can't accept your indifference, because I can't accept without you in the future, I can't watch you stay away from me without being indifferent, I can't imagine that you and I will go our separate ways in the future, and I never thought that you will be with another person in the future. People form a family," Song Yu gave him reasons one by one: "I need you more than I imagined, I'm sorry Cheng Yan... just because I want to like you, okay?"