the living [comprehensive]

Chapter 31

Heroic Spirit hugged the boy in his arms tightly in silence.After a long time, he finally spoke again.

"What you just did was done before."

"You mean...?" The boy asked shortly with a strong nasal voice.

Ahh, I was really hit so hard that I was about to cry; but I can continue to be brave after going through such a thing, and I am afraid there is nothing that can stop this stubborn kid.

Looking past the boy's shoulder to the rusty red blood stains on the sand, Heroic Spirit showed a bitter smile.

"That person noticed the abnormality of his companion: the body is rotting day by day, but the parts that were cut off due to injuries will grow again—in a form that is completely different from the human body." The heroic spirit's indifferent tone seemed to be talking to It's completely irrelevant to me, "He finally confirmed that the monster is the guardian. In order to protect this secret, he personally ended the life of his comrades. Although, the guy who was betrayed did not have any resentment towards humans."

After finally understanding what Heroic Spirit said, the young man suddenly clasped the arm of Heroic Spirit Ring in front of him, and used his fingers with great strength to almost embed into Heroic Spirit's solid muscle: "The person who was killed...is that you? The person who strikes is the person in this team, the guardian who is also wearing a red robe?"

Ying Ling was silent for a while: "It seems that I was worrying too much. You who have grown up in a short period of time should not need my comfort."

Even though the tone could not be more flat, and the content of the words can be regarded as praise, Shirou felt as if his heart had been stabbed, and he couldn't help trembling from the pain.

Misunderstood that the boy was shivering due to the cold, Heroic Spirit embraced him more closely: "Bear the most tragic truth, and encourage the whole team to move on; his thoughts are so similar to yours. He also Indeed, he went on and became the most powerful guardian on this land in countless battles, after that..."

"After that?" Vaguely guessing that it was an unexpected development, Shirou continued to ask masochistically.

"He killed countless women and children, as well as countless monsters. It must have finally been overwhelmed. After killing his companion who turned into a monster in front of him, he seemed to be the strongest guy in the world. It finally fell apart."

"That is to say..."

"He has become a powerful monster that no other guardian can strangle."

——The most ardent hope in the world will inevitably turn into the deepest despair.

Shirou was almost unable to bear the sharp pain in his heart and cried out, but in the end he suppressed the impulse and only uttered an extremely small moan of pain.He gently broke free from the heroic spirit's arm and stood up: "Thank you for telling me this. Remembering the past, you are also in pain."

"No...it should be me thanking you. Although you are just an idiot, at least you can listen to me and understand me...this is really incredible."

"Sharing the pain for you, of course I can do it." Turning around to face the heroic spirit, the boy's tired and sad eyes brightened again, "After all, you were once 'Shiro Emiya'."

"Don't compare yourself to me, stupid brat." Yingling paused, "Speaking of which, you should be aware of it, right?"

"Hmm." Shirou clenched his lower lip and almost squeezed the answer through his teeth, "You...are you leaving? As a heroic spirit, you shouldn't have stayed here for so long."

"It's just because of the magic power. We'll see you again soon." Heroic Spirit's tone was as cold as ever, and he stared at the young man in front of him worriedly. "It's you, don't die within a few days of my departure."

"I'm not going to die..."

"Who knows? After all, if you see innocent people suffering, you will rush to save them."

"Of course." Shirou lowered his voice.

Heroic Spirit stretched out his hand a little annoyed, wanting to flick the stubborn young man hard on the forehead, but in the end he just lightly stroked the other's shining eyes with his fingers.

"Listen to me, kid. You must do what you promised yourself."

Things I promised?

"I'm not going to be you, and I'm not going to put you in a situation where you have to kill me yourself."

"I won't make you look sad again."

The promise he made to the heroic spirit not long ago came to mind, Shirou raised his eyes and stared at the back of the heroic spirit who was about to leave, suddenly rushed forward a few steps, and stretched out his hand to the heroic spirit desperately——

Heroic Spirit, who was stopped by the boy, had a slight fluctuation in his calm face.

He was not unaware of the obscure feelings that the young man harbored towards him that he shouldn't have had.

It's just that the wrong emotion generated at the wrong time is better to let it die.Most of the other party thought the same way, so they tried their best to suppress the surging emotions.

but now……

Heroic Spirit didn't look back, but he couldn't pretend to be calm anymore.

The other party held his hand tightly, and pressed his forehead against the center of his back.The burning emotion in his chest, which was almost boiling, was clearly transmitted from the position where the two bodies intersected.

Clearly feeling the fiery emotions in the boy's rapid breathing, Heroic Spirit frowned impatiently, but he didn't break away from the boy's hand that reached out from behind and clasped his five fingers.

"What I promised you, I will do it," the young man gently expressed his heart, "After all, the person I made the promise to is you. In short, I will bring you the future you expect."

——It won’t make you look sad again.

——It will not make you fall into a situation of contradiction and pain.

——More importantly, I will completely pull you out of the cycle of despair, no matter what the price is—

Ying Ling moved her lips: "You give me a good life first."

The heroic spirit who knows the essence of "Shirou Emiya" best, can't help but worry about the boy who is extremely pure and strong.However, he kept the strong emotions that were no less complicated than that of a teenager in his heart, and his appearance was so calm that there was no clue to follow.

After saying these words, the heroic spirit disappeared in front of Shirou as the night gradually shrouded like a haze.

Gently rubbing his fingers with the lingering aura of a heroic spirit in aftertaste, the boy's starry eyes were covered with confusion for the first time.

Archer, who had realized his wish, turned into a soul wandering in the darkness, and the Middle Eastern youth who practiced his ideals eventually turned into the most dangerous threat to the people he cherished.

It seems that every strong hope is destined to sink into the abyss of despair; this is why Archer has been trying to stop himself before.

Hope and despair are always in a brutal balance.So, besides erasing despair from Archer's world bit by bit, has my own existence brought other changes to the place where I stand at this moment?

——such as the early arrival of a moment of despair.

The wind brought the smell of blood and the sound of gunfire to Shirou, making him finally move forward.At first, his tired body could only move forward extremely slowly, and then he started to run wildly because of his eagerness.

What happened?Can you catch up with yourself?

If these guardians are in despair when they learn the truth because of the disaster that came in advance, then...is this also their own fault?

As darkness descends gradually, the dim moonlight is also obscured by thick clouds.But Shirou, who climbed up the hill with difficulty, still saw clearly what had happened.

The current guardians are facing the enemy.

The black shadow stretched out its sharp claws to the guardians, trying to tear them apart; the teenagers who were protected by the guardians and brainwashed by the enemy grabbed their broken weapons, as if they were waiting for an opportunity to attack the guardians.

Maybe he encountered a monster after subduing this group of boy scouts.The Boy Scouts who fought for the enemy are no longer fellow Guardians, but this group still chooses to protect these ignorant and cruel children.

To protect one's own country and fellow-men - that is the original intention of these guardians.

The bright white blade collided with the pure black twisted limbs, the fire caused by the hot weapon was still burning, and the guardian's body was torn apart in the violent airflow.

What greeted his eyes was an extremely tragic battle, but in Shirou's view, it was a harbinger of the collapse of everything.

The person being protected hates, misunderstands, attacks... This is the heaviest despair a guardian can have, right?

The tall man tried his best to cut off the black shadow tearing his cloak, but fell to his knees because of a shot from behind that hit his calf.He raised his knife angrily, turned his head to look for the despicable attacker, but when he saw the boy with a gun behind him, he froze his action at that moment.

Facing the dull eyes of the child who has become the enemy's eagle dog, the man did not get angry because of the other party's betrayal.He just stared blankly at the boy who was his compatriot, the storm in his eyes that were originally full of fighting spirit subsided, and was eroded by despair a little bit.

And behind the man, the monsters rushing over again stretched out their hands to him, and would tear his tall body into pieces in the next second——

- Swish!

An incredible blow swept across the swarming monsters, severing all of their necks.

Shirou, who came here at the nick of time, exhausted almost all his strength, grasped the magic blade and swung it fiercely——

Shirou sat slumped on the ground, his hands trembling from the weakness and pain.Although he temporarily rescued the man, he didn't feel relaxed at all.

Amidst the sound of burning flames and slashing, Shirou clearly heard the man's small voice: "Why did you save me? I already..."

People who fight for their dreams have not completely escaped the erosion of despair.

The guardians who were crushed by the desire to "guard their compatriots" seemed destined to fall into darkness.

Feeling powerless, Shirou lowered his head, and his face filled with powerlessness also dimmed a bit.

At the moment when despair really came, I still seemed to be unable to do anything.Even if I save these people and become a guardian at this moment, what can I do?Just jumping into this cycle of despair.

But why now, I still don't want to admit defeat?

Is it because of selfish bravado?Not really.Being recognized by Archer, there is no need to step into the quagmire of the Middle East.

Maybe it's because I'm worried about the Heroic Spirits and the Guardians.That's why I have come all the way, and even after experiencing countless cruel things, I can still ignite my fighting spirit.

Changing the fate of the guardian, changing the inevitability of despair, is simply a task so difficult that it cannot be accomplished.But if you don’t try, how do you know you can’t do it?

Even in the face of the dire situation... I must not give up here!

Finally, it resonated with the boy's strong emotions, and the white light suddenly appeared, tearing the night like lightning.

Shirou blinked as he watched the bright spots of light turn into countless threads in front of him.

——This is the "restraining force".

"I want to...be a guardian."

Shirou who was talking raised his head in the bloody battlefield like hell, the strong light in his eyes made him exude an incomparable aura for a moment.

"I want to be a guardian! For my wish—"

The author has something to say: seek the psychological shadow area of ​​black tea 233

And—I said that the next chapter is Gao Tian, ​​do you believe it or not? ? ?