look back and see him

Chapter 9

When Lu Xiaoman returned to the room, Yan Yan had probably been standing by the door waiting for a long time.Seeing Lu Xiaoman push the door open, he immediately asked with a trace of uncertainty: "Is my cousin that Pan Jinlian?"

Lu Xiaoman, who had almost forgotten this allusion, almost didn't laugh out loud.

"Thank you for being able to connect your cousin with Pan Jinlian without smiling."

Yan Yan was too serious, so that she didn't listen to everything as a cross talk laugh like usual. "That Shen Yizui back then was Ximen Qing, right? They made you quit the showbiz together."

Lu Xiaoman really didn't expect that Yan Yan usually looks stupid, but in fact his reasoning ability is quite strong.He faced the other party's question a little seriously: "Actually, it's not their fault, it's just that the incident made me realize that I can't afford to take care of the uncle in the entertainment industry."

"I thought my cousin was just suppressing you for business affairs - this is the main reason why I dislike him. I didn't dare to tell you who my cousin is because I was afraid that you would be angry with me." Yan Yan thought carefully and explained carefully. .

Lu Xiaoman squinted at the other side deliberately reproachfully: "Do you think I'm the kind of unreasonable person who blames others casually?"

Yan Yan replied sincerely: "The main thing is that the truth you said has never been very similar to the earth world."

"I only know that in the earth world, cousins ​​should have the same surname. What's the matter with you and Jin Cen? Are you cousins?"

"Our family is not very opposed to my acting. In order to separate my relationship with my family, I took the stage name Yan Yan."

"Then what's your real name?"

"Jin Yan."

Lu Xiaoman was amused: "Did you know that there is a person who talks about cross talk with that name."

"I don't know. If I knew, I would have said it to get extra points if I liked cross talk so much."

"Then you should call Guo Degang more points."

Yan Yan, who seemed to be worried, did not expect to defend his appearance and height. He looked at Lu Xiaoman thoughtfully, and asked hesitantly, "Do you still like my cousin?"

Lu Xiaoman really didn't expect the other party to be researching this matter.He subconsciously raised his eyebrows: "What do you think?"

Yan Yan said without thinking: "My cousin should be looking for you. After knowing that you are Ding Yu last night, I couldn't hold back and set our photo as the profile picture of WeChat - this is a private account , so I only have family members on my WeChat, I didn't want to expose you, just because I have a relationship with an idol photo, I want to show off..." He explained indiscriminately for a long time, and finally decided to let the topic go, "It should be my cousin I saw the profile picture when I received my message last night, but he came over today... I didn't recognize you at first, he only saw such a small profile picture... How did he tell you? He wants to Get back together with you?"

"If someone dumped you for someone else, and he framed you, would you get back together with him?"

Yan Yan replied affirmatively: "If that person is you, I will."

Lu Xiaoman was so blocked that he couldn't speak.He couldn't tell whether it was moved or simply speechless.

"Don't be so stupid," Lu Xiaoman said after a long while, "If I treat you like that, you have to treat yourself well, and don't let me have a chance to hurt you——then again, my character is very good, don't worry , I won't do that."

Yan Yan finally raised a slightly relieved smile: "You are in charge of good character, and I am in charge of treating you well. We have a clear division of labor, and we will be able to cooperate smoothly!"

"Maybe we can still fit together smoothly, if you continue to stay." It was late, and Lu Xiaoman was about to drive away.He didn't realize what he said until he said it. People who don't like cross talk may misunderstand.

Sure enough, Yan Yan in front of her blushed suddenly.

Lu Xiaoman had no choice but to bite the bullet and explain: "That's the same reason as I told you that I invite you to eat steamed lamb and steamed bear's paw."

"...Does that mean you lied to me?"

"Can telling a joke be called a lie?"

"It doesn't matter if you can't eat the steamed lamb and steamed bear's paw. Sooner or later, there will be a fit?" Yan Yan asked.

Lu Xiaoman was stunned.The innocent child who was usually bullied by him actually consulted him in such a serious manner, and he was even embarrassed by the question. "Falling in love starts with dating." The acting school tried hard to preach calmly, "The difference between a relationship and a one-night stand lies in how fast you go to bed."

Hearing this, Yan Yan raised a big smile: "I'll go back to sleep now. You should also rest early, so that you can recharge your spirits and let's go on a date tomorrow."

In fact, when it comes to Lu Xiaoman treating Yan Yan as a rookie, in reality this is just the second more formal relationship with him.Before Jin Cen, Lu Xiaoman was almost a blank slate.Lu Xiaoman's personality is too distinct. For him, no possibility means no possibility. Before the uncertainty, he never dated anyone because he didn't have much interest in girls.When I was in drama school, it can be said that a male teacher "enlightened" Lu Xiaoman, but the two have always been ambiguous.At that time, his germination may be more about the discovery of his own sexuality.The male teacher dominated all their relationships, but he never made a clear statement. After graduation, the two of them let it go.After meeting Jin Cen, it was probably the first time that Lu Xiaoman was really involved in a relationship.At that time, it was more under Jin Cen's strong control, and Lu Xiaoman was only responsible for conniving at each other's approach because of his good feelings for him.Until they lived together, and then they broke up—yes, even their breakup was Lu Xiaoman's decision for Jin Cen.Lu Xiaoman has never led a relationship before, he is not passive in character, but he is used to cooperating emotionally.In the face of Yan Yan, Lu Xiaoman often felt that his more mature self was the one who grasped the situation, but in reality, it was still Yan Yan who really promoted the progress of their relationship.Dealing with relationships is not what Lu Xiaoman is good at, he never knows when to take a step forward or take a step back.Therefore, Lu Xiaoman preferred older men before.However, he was willing to give it a try for Yan Yan.This may have something to do with the loneliness during the two-year window period, but Yan Yan is one of the very few people who can make him let go of his guard and date, and he doesn't want to let him down.

In the days that followed, the two of them went about their business step by step.The entertainment conditions on the mountain are not enough, Yan Yan, who wants to have a good date, specially asks the film crew for leave to lead Xiaoman to the town to watch a movie.At first, Lu Xiaoman certainly disagreed with Yan Yan's playfulness, but the latter took the script to prove to Lu Xiaoman that he really didn't have many scenes.It should be the original arrangement that Yan Yan can leave first after filming, but now Yan Yan is not in a hurry to leave, and he has a lot of extra vacations without affecting other actors' notices.Then, Yan Yan, who was leading Lu Xiaoman down the mountain to play, lost his way several times and couldn't find his destination, so he was taken by Lu Xiaoman to play around.

For Yan Yan's future, the relationship between the two wanted to keep a low profile, but they asked for leave on the same day and did not see each other. In addition, Yan Yan liked to chat with Lu Xiaoman when he was free, so the crew quickly made fun of the relationship between Yan Yan and Lu Xiaoman.Every time, Yan Yan didn't refute, and responded jokingly with a smile.The reason why he didn't admit it openly was mainly because Lu Xiaoman didn't agree to disclose the relationship between the two.Lu Xiaoman knows that Yan Yan is Jin Cen's cousin, even if he really admits that he is gay, there will be no revelations that will be published on major websites. However, he does not have a good impression of public opinion, so he feels that nothing is worth publishing.And who knows what Jin Cen will do, if he wants to deal with his cousin because his self-esteem is frustrated, Lu Xiaoman doesn't want to give the other party too much leverage to attack.

Speaking of Jin Cen, Lu Xiaoman really doesn't know what the other party will do right now.After the conversation that day, Jin Cen did not take the initiative to find Lu Xiaoman again.However, he booked a room at the Sangjia Inn for two weeks and stayed there as if nothing had happened.The crew almost booked all the better rooms in the inn—although the director quickly said that he could make a suite, but in the end Jin Cen declined and moved into a bunk room in the inn that could sleep ten people.Although there were no guests anyway, and the whole room was taken over by Jin Cen, the rich people who grew up with good clothes and fine clothes had to use the public bathroom to wash and go to the toilet. For this reason, Lu Xiaoman met several times in the corridor. To CEO Jin Da who was about to go to the toilet or take a washbasin in the inn to take a shower.Every time he saw Lu Xiaoman, Jin Cen would chat a few words as if nothing had happened.For example, asking Lu Xiaoman if he was tired of helping so many people cook, why he didn't order food in the town.This kind of problem is really idiotic to Lu Xiaoman, the town is too far away from the filming location of the film crew, and the food delivered will at least be cold if it doesn't go bad.He was too lazy to explain too much to Jin Cen, and often responded casually perfunctorily.Usually, Jin Cen would end the conversation before Lu Xiaoman completely lost his patience, and then went on to his bathroom.

Lu Xiaoman doesn't want to bother about Jin Cen, anyway, he is not afraid of being framed again by the other party now, but he is always curious, especially if that person is Jin Cen, his best emotion in the past, now his worst emotion, Given it all to this person, Lu Xiaoman can't help wondering what the other person's plans are.For this reason, Lu Xiaoman asked Yan Yan: "Did your cousin stay here to persuade you to go home early?"

Faced with this question, Yan Yan's expression was so calm that it was strange: "Don't worry, Xiaoman. Even if you really dumped me and returned to my cousin's arms, in order to prevent my cousin from hurting you again, I will definitely not give up. I will definitely put you Chase it back."

"...Are you filming too many bloody TV series?"

Yan Yan hesitated to look at Lu Xiaoman with a vaguely guilty expression: "Xiaoman, if I keep something from you, will you blame me?"

Lu Xiaoman thinks this question is very simple: "If it is something I have the right to know, of course I will blame you."

Yan Yan couldn't laugh or cry: "According to the routine, you should say that you won't blame me."

"But I'm honest, I don't want to lie to you."

"...My emotions have been destroyed by you."

"You're an actor, and it's your job to cultivate and protect emotions."

The person who was preached for no reason blinked for a while, and then suddenly thought: "Xiao Man, can you help me correct my lines?"

This is what they do most often on dates recently, Lu Xiaoman didn't realize it for a while, and directly reached out: "Script?"

"There is no script, you just need to listen to me recite the lines, and then react casually."

Lu Xiaoman raised his eyebrows slightly vigilantly: "So, you start?"

Yan Yan nodded silently, and after a short pause, he elaborated from the beginning: "Because the entertainment industry is very small, I actually know my cousin's friends. Some good friends know the relationship between my cousin and me, so sometimes they will be with me. I talked about my cousin. Once, the date was around the end of May, a friend said that my cousin was very perverted, and he celebrated his lover’s birthday last week, but his lover’s birthday was obviously in November, so he just gave it to someone It’s my birthday in May. Another friend who knew the inside story immediately broke a lot of news. He said that my cousin had a lover before, and it can be said that it was because of this lover. It is said that my cousin actually hated his current lover because of this, but He just stayed with the other party, celebrating the anniversary of the old lover with the new lover, and celebrating the new lover's birthday on the old lover's birthday. If the new lover raised objections, he would say that he remembered it wrong, but on the bed he didn't change his expression Call the new lover by the old lover's name. The new lover knows that the cousin did it on purpose."

When Yan Yan finally finished speaking and waited for Lu Xiaoman to respond, the latter responded in a flattering way: "Oh."

Yan Yan looked at him with indescribable eyes: "That's it?"

"Do you want me to comment on your cousin's bad character? He is your relative, so I'd better speak politely."

Yan Yan's eyes lit up all of a sudden, "Right!" I don't know what the right answer is, "I think so too! It's too bad for my cousin to do that! I'm afraid that you are like a naive and simple-minded little girl. I was moved!"

"Do you know, Yan Yan?" Lu Xiaoman raised his head and spoke seriously.

Yan Yan straightened her back subconsciously: "What?"

"Next time you use the little girl analogy on me, I'll add enough chili sauce to your lunch."

Yan Yan was very aggrieved, "I look like a little girl, so I don't allow others to talk about it." The words were between muttering and slander, originally I didn't want Lu Xiaoman to hear clearly, but unfortunately Lu Xiaoman's ears are too good.He patted the back of Yan Yan's head with his hand: "Can the little girl hit you so hard?"

Yan Yan, who didn't feel any pain at all, was only amused: "The little girl is really not as gentle as you when she hits someone."

"Okay, let's talk about something serious after the lines. If you hide the things in my lines just now, I will never blame you, because this has nothing to do with me. And if you hide from me For anything else, I'll surely blame you—but I'll surely forgive you, too."

When Lu Xiaoman said that, he suddenly realized that he was hiding something from Yan Yan.

——That's the thing, in a relationship, he always doesn't know when to take a step forward and when to take a step back.