Let me think about it

Chapter 56 55.54.53.52.51.

Zheng Feng came out of the shower, looked at himself in the mirror, his eyes were red, and his face was wet with water vapor.

"I'm out." He changed into soft pajamas and opened the door, and saw Li Yuan sitting on the sofa, holding the gray kitten in his arms.

The kitten rolled comfortably in the opponent's arms, then jumped onto the table and licked the biscuit tentatively, so a smile appeared on Li Yuan's face.

Zheng Feng had imagined such a scene a long time ago. When they were old, the two of them would go back to the house in S City to live quietly, raise a few puppies and cats, and Li Yuan would read books during the day, and Zheng Feng would be by his side. Flipping the magazine next to it.

But does this future as imagined still exist today?Zheng Feng lay on Li Yuan's body like an octopus before he dried his hair, and the silky hair hung down on his forehead, like a small furry animal.

"What's the matter, are you upset about being in the headlines this afternoon?" Li Yuan rubbed his head.

"That's not true." Zheng Feng pouted, "I don't care what they think, people who don't like you will never like you, obviously the fan group says I'm cute."

"Then why are you unhappy?" Li Yuan asked, and stuffed a few raisins into his mouth.

"No, now that the filming is over, every day is very easy." Zheng Feng chewed on the raisins, and said vaguely, "Xu Zichen also said that my Weibo followers rose by 10,000+ all of a sudden, which was amazing, and he didn't It’s time to buy me a navy.”

He looked into Li Yuan's eyes while talking, Zheng Feng was born not to lie, nor would he change the subject, especially when it came to Li Yuan, as soon as he lied, the other party would always find him out.

As a result, Li Yuan didn't say anything this time, and continued to tease the kitten with his head down.So Zheng Feng, who was born to be entangled with Taurus, was unhappy, and Li Yuan didn't even care about him when he had a cat.

It can be seen from this that people have a particularly strong sense of crisis when they want to leave, and any creature looks like a rival in love.

"If one day I'm gone, will you live with it?" Zheng Feng put his arms around Li Yuan's waist.

"Probably." Li Yuan agreed casually, but Zheng Feng suddenly became serious, "What I said is true."

He raised his head to look at Li Yuan, put his hands on his shoulders, "If one day I am really gone, I will definitely not marry anyone after returning to Daqing, but Li Yuan, I really hope you don't feel sad , just find someone to replace me, no matter if it’s a man or a woman.”

He said so with sadness in his heart.Zheng Feng never thought that one day he would be able to say such majestic words, obviously before, he felt that others would be extremely sour if he took a second look at Li Yuan.

It turns out that now I just want him to live a good life, regardless of whether I am in it or not.

"But why did you say that suddenly?" Li Yuan raised his head and looked at him in confusion.

Zheng Feng swallowed the raisins and kissed his lips.

"Because this is more in line with the atmosphere of the conversation just now, am I cute?"

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The cute and cute Zheng Feng didn't fall asleep all night, and didn't close his eyes until early morning.

When Li Yuan got up to go to work, Zheng Feng felt that there must be light snow outside the window.As if returning to my childhood, the whole world turned white overnight, just like my father's hair suddenly turned white, making people feel at a loss in a hurry.

"Zheng Feng." Not long after Li Yuan left, Xu Zichen stood at the door and knocked on the door of their house. Zheng Feng was so sleepy that he got out of bed with two dark circles under his eyes and opened the door for him.

"How are you doing recently?" Xu Zichen sat down on the sofa unceremoniously, the fine snowflakes on his shoulders shook off with his movements.

"It's really unhygienic." Zheng Feng said, taking out toilet paper to wipe it clean, "Our floor is very precious, it can't be soaked in water."

Xu Zichen rolled his eyes: "Yes, yes, why didn't you say that your toilets are all inlaid with gold and diamonds."

This is definitely ironic, Zheng Feng touched his nose and decided not to criticize him.

"It's freezing to death outside, this suburb is really hard to find." Xu Zichen rubbed his frozen red fingers, and took a long time to look him up, "Why do you have dark circles under your eyes like a panda, didn't you sleep well last night? "

"It's nothing..." Zheng Feng poured him a glass of water and sat opposite Xu Zichen. "Probably because I've been too tired recently, and I'm in a bad mood."

"Sure enough." Xu Zichen said clearly, "Li Yuan said that something was wrong with you these past two days, and he was afraid that you wouldn't want to tell him about something, so he specially brought me here to do ideological work for you. "

"So he noticed it..." Zheng Feng lowered his head, his eyes that had been sore all night seemed to start to swell again.

He felt that he was becoming more and more like Li Yuan, always silent, always covering up, and he had to carry everything by himself.

"Actually, Zheng Feng." Xu Zichen sighed, "I've been making light bulbs for so long, you should understand that the person who cares most about your thoughts must be Li Yuan, and in many cases, it's better to just hide and say nothing. Li Yuan is more mature than you, if you really encounter any difficult problems, he should be fully capable of guiding you to solve them."

Zheng Feng sighed deeply, of course he also understands this truth, but how should he talk to Li Yuan about this kind of thing?

In other words, whether it is necessary to speak.

Zheng Feng sat on the sofa at home, and told Xu Zichen everything heartily, with tears streaming down his nose while talking, which made Xu Zichen look confused.

"Don't think I'm talking nonsense." Zheng Feng said, "I really traveled through time."

"I didn't think you were talking nonsense..." Xu Zichen opened his mouth after a while, as if he still didn't know how to organize his words.

He was a little dazed and said: "You think I'm a fool, you jumped out of this place out of nowhere, your personality is very different from before, you don't know anything about this era, you are still stupid and cute..."

Now it was Zheng Feng's turn to look at the other party in surprise, it turned out that he already knew so much.

"Actually." Xu Zichen seemed to relax a little, and changed into a more comfortable position, leaning back against the sofa.

"I just want to say, no matter where you are from, since you have decided to come here, you should be responsible for everything you have done here. Li Yuan, he is different from people in our circle. Emotionally, he is a very serious person. The suicide of his fiancée a few years ago left him with a great psychological shadow, and the rumors have been going on for so many years..."

"Zheng Feng, there is nothing wrong with choosing to leave, because this is the trajectory of your life." Xu Zichen carefully considered the next words.

"But one thing, whether as a friend or as a consultant, I hope you can promise me not to leave without saying goodbye, this is the greatest harm to everyone."

"I understand." Zheng Feng lowered his eyes.

How insignificant we humans are compared to the forces of the outside world.

The moment Xu Zichen raised his head and looked at each other again, Xu Zichen did not speak, just like Zheng Feng.

A little embarrassed, but also moved, as if returning to the time when we met at the elevator door for the first time, but this time Zheng Feng chose to open his hands and gave him a huge hug.

"Thank you for everything from the beginning until now."

"Then, if you're still here." Xu Zichen patted him on the shoulder, suppressing the countless complicated emotions in his heart and said, "I'll see you tomorrow."

"See you tomorrow." Zheng Feng said, "See you tomorrow."

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After seeing off Xu Zichen, Zheng Feng sat quietly on the sofa, thinking about everything he had experienced this year.

From "The Temptation of Returning to the Palace" to "Nine Songs 1, 2", he received so much attention when he flew out. "Green Clothes" brought him his first nomination for best actor, but "Red Alert" Leading everything to a Waterloo-like turning point, Master Chen taught him an extremely important moment in his life, and Mr. Li's "Jiangshan" finally allowed him to complete all tasks.

How can the twists and turns experienced in the middle, as well as the people I met, be easily forgotten and let go?

Zheng Feng thought of Li Yuan again.

In this era of eccentricity but countless memories and surprises, maybe he really didn't love him that much at first.

At first it was because there was no support, but for the first time I really started to feel like Li Yuan probably because I saw him standing in front of the tombstone, so lonely and silent that it made people feel distressed.It was also at that time that he realized that such an unkind person also had his softness and secrets that he couldn't tell.

After getting along for a long time, he always felt that Li Yuan was really pitiful. He had such a bad past, no friends, and was surrounded by interests every day. Even if this kind of life came to the end, nothing would happen. Memories to remember.

Before Meimei said that the two of them must be well, Zheng Feng also promised her that he would replace all the previous misfortunes and give Li Yuan double happiness.

But how can he give him happiness now?Zheng Feng thought over and over again, his heart was like a cup of sour grass juice that melted.

[Host, I regret to tell you that tonight is the deadline for returning to time and space after the mission is completed, please make a decision before then. ]

Time seemed to stand still at this moment.

[I have made a decision. ] Zheng Feng said.

He didn't know what Li Yuan would think, but he suddenly made up his mind at that moment.

[I want to stay. ]