Identity swap

Chapter 18

On the day of the graduation party, I was waiting at the entrance, and Ah Mao told me to hurry over, she was going to put on my makeup.They still don't know that I'm not Yang Zhao, and they keep gossiping about the latest situation between me and Jiang Huaiyuan.

I said it was all good.

A Mao is actually a good girl.

She said, Xiao Zhao, don't cry, why have I seen you so sad recently, you are more delicate than a little girl, now you have to put on your eye makeup again.

It's been a long time since I've been on stage in front of so many audiences, and the lights are so dazzling that people can't keep their eyes open.People kept shouting "Yang Zhao" and "Senior Yang Zhao" and the like, and the fluorescent sticks issued by the school and all kinds of mobile phone flashlights were on, creating a lively atmosphere.

I tried the sound test and saw Qin Huai standing at the entrance of the venue. He was leaning against the glass wall. He was no longer the heroic man who sat in the first row of the auditorium and waited for me to play when we first met. man, he looks as depressed as I am.I don't intend to guess how sad he is.

This is the song "sweetheart". When I said I wanted to write a song for Jiang Huaiyuan, Jiang Huaiyuan was hugging me and said that he wanted me to write the sweetest song, which would make everyone envious, so sweet that he lost his teeth.

I started to play, and just after I sang a few lines, people began to applaud, and someone raised their mobile phone and shook it gently, like a rice field blown by the wind, with rolling waves, and slowly the ground became quiet. The flashlight and fluorescent stick on the mobile phone were all After a stop, I heard someone whispering, and Ah Mao was circling anxiously in the next curtain.

I can't sing anymore.

Before the end of the song, after I bowed deeply to the audience, tears rolled down my face and fell to the ground.

I was as self-willed as ever, leaving a mess waiting for Amao to clean up.

I backstage.Girls I didn't know surrounded me and said some comforting words, and some gave me gifts, saying they wished me a bright future. I smiled and said I was fine.

Life is really amazing sometimes. People like me who originally only had one or two friends, in the name of Yang Zhao, not only went to college, but also met so many enthusiastic classmates, even though I have no memory of them, They can also twitter and talk a lot around me.

I went to Qingmeng Garden and sat on a long chair facing the river.Qin Huai sat down beside me, he said, are you okay?

I said you followed me all day, regardless of your company.

Qin Huai said, what's the point of earning more money?Couldn't even find a partner.

When I got home, Song Qi knocked on the door, I thought it was Jiang Huaiyuan.

Song Qi stood by the sofa, as if she was about to leave at any time, he said: "I heard about you... Huaiyuan asked me to come and see you... Are you okay?"

I washed the fruit for him and served him water, but he waved his hand and said you're welcome.

Song Qi probably saw that I was too dull, she shook her hand in front of my eyes, and said, "You... have participated in many piano competitions before, right?"

I couldn't focus my eyes a little bit, and nodded dumbly.

He said: "I used to have a friend who really liked you for several years... You are quite talented, so go back and stop being in that circle."

After tearing off the cloak of Yang Zhao's identity, I couldn't even talk to Song Qi naturally, and he didn't know how to address me, so he always used "you" instead.I don't know if his words are considered comforting.

He also said: "I used to think that Xiao Zhao and you looked alike, but I didn't expect the real person to be more similar than the online photos. They are actually brothers."

I couldn't hear what he said clearly at all, and I listened to a few sentences selectively, so that I didn't notice when he left.

After Song Qi left, I decided to go for a walk. Qin Huai was downstairs like a lingering ghost.

Qin Huai said he was worried that I couldn't think about it.

I said I didn't think about dying.

He looked worried, saying that whether you will commit suicide or not is not up to you.

As if he knew me well.

Unknowingly, I came to the happy community in Jianghuaiyuan. Qin Huai was a little angry and asked me what I was doing here.I said you have never been here, how do you know so much about the housing situation here?

No need to think about it, Qin Huai must find someone to investigate Jianghuai Yuan's ten generations.

I recognize Jianghuaiyuan's car, but I haven't been able to see clearly what's inside.He got out of the car, saw me, froze on the spot, and then got off his co-pilot and got off Yang Zhao.

I said: "What a coincidence"

Jiang Huaiyuan asked me why I came here. I wanted to say that I came here for a walk, but I guess he wouldn't believe such an obvious lie.

Yang Zhao and I greeted each other briefly, looking completely innocent, and said, "I'll go up first, you guys talk first."

Qin Huai pulled me aside, I slapped him in a moment of excitement, Qin Huai walked away.

Jiang Huaiyuan said, that friend of yours cares about you very much.

"Well, a rare friend"

I didn't know what to say to him, and finally said vaguely: "I'm leaving."

He was a little surprised and asked me where I was going.

I said, go see me off tomorrow, don't ask me where I went, I can return the key to you by the way.

In fact, I didn't plan to leave, but I didn't plan to take back what I said.

Jiang Huaiyuan looked at me with gentle sadness in his eyes, like when I just woke up.

I said, don't look at me like that, I keep misunderstanding, I don't understand you.

Looking up, on the 16th floor, on the balcony belonging to his house, Yang Zhaozheng leaned forward and looked down, very much like me on the day Jiang Huaiyuan moved away.

I had a sore nose and said, Huaiyuan, it doesn't matter if you don't come, go up quickly.

Ever since I knew Yang Zhao was my younger brother, I have always felt ashamed of Yang Zhao.He is my own younger brother, and it is not easy to live by my mother's side. According to my stepmother, my mother has always been weak and sick, and needs a lot of money for medical treatment.

And all of this, I know nothing about.

It's not beyond my understanding that Yang Zhao needs strong achievements to support his pride.He has talents that I don't have, and he also has the motivation to move forward that I don't have. It is perfect for him to inherit the Lin family.

I took the suitcase and went to the train station. I only had a bank card, and I didn’t know how long the money in it would last. I chose to take the train because it was slow enough. If Jianghuaiyuan wanted to chase me, there was still time for me to drive.

There was also an ID card named "Yang Zhao". This ID card was lying in Jiang Huaiyuan's wallet at the time, and was kept carefully, which led me to always think that he loved me.

After I went to the ticket collection hall to collect the tickets, Jiang Huaiyuan stood at the door, and I said, "Are you here?"

He said "show me where you go"

I showed him the ticket, he smiled and gave it back to me.

The square in front of the train station was very large, and there was a big tree surrounded by concrete. He said, "Would you like to sit down?"

I wiped off the dust on the surface and made a place for him.

Holding a bottle of milk, he was silent for a while and said, "I quit the hospital job."

I said "hmm"

He looked at me and said, "Yang Zhao and I always feel a little unfamiliar with each other, and we don't get used to it."

I wanted to say that I was Yang Zhao from now on, but I couldn't say it out, knowing that he didn't mean that, so why jumping out and embarrassing myself?

He put the milk in the straw and handed it to me, I said, don't always treat me like this, since you are with Yang Zhao, don't always let me misunderstand.

Jiang Huaiyuan looked at me quietly, the hand holding the milk froze in mid-air, and then gave a strange smile: "Hey, drink it."

Jiang Huaiyuan is a person who loves nostalgia. I have felt countless times that such a man must be very affectionate.But he has thin lips and is destined to be a ruthless person.

For my brother, he became a doctor, and for my brother, he gave up being a doctor.

I once visited a shrine sincerely, but feared that remembering the past would affect the future.In fact, there was nothing I could do to stop it from happening.

I hope that Jiang Huaiyuan can be happy, and I also hope that my brother can be happy. They love each other. In fact, this ending is not too bad.

Jiang Huaiyuan insisted on watching me line up to enter the station, he said: "Take care of yourself"

I said you too.

Jiang Huaiyuan said: "Don't run too far, you can't find your way back"

I didn't look back, holding up the phone, watching him standing outside the line and watching me step by step through the fiberglass surface of the phone, my eyes were sore.

Entering the waiting room, I randomly found a seat and sat down, staring at the ticket in a daze.

The terminal is only a few stops away from here. I hope he will come to see me. In fact, he only needs to say something like "Why don't you go?" I will definitely stay, but what he said to me is : "Take care of yourself", so I couldn't find an excuse to stay.

A chubby little boy who was not as tall as my knees came over, looked at me timidly, handed me a toffee, and said, "Brother, here is the candy, don't cry."

His mother, a young and elegant lady, was sitting behind him, smiling.I took his candy, peeled off the icing and put it in my mouth, saying: "It's very sweet, thank you, kid"

The little boy shyly hid in his mother's arms.

Jiang Huaiyuan always has toffee in his pocket, he said it is to comfort the crying children and girls in the hospital.

I don't know if he can still get candy in his pocket after he stops being a doctor.

Get on the train, jump off the train one second before the train starts.

What I thought in my heart was that if Jiang Huaiyuan hadn't left outside the station now, even if he didn't let me stay, I wouldn't have left.I always want to find another excuse for myself to stay, thinking that maybe I still have a chance.

In fact, I am not that magnanimous, I am very stingy, and even the slightest chance is enough to make me look forward to it.

But I rushed back with my luggage, and after being scolded severely by the flight attendant, whether it was at the entrance or the train station square, I searched back and forth several times, and everyone who saw the image on the back went up to see if it was right. He, several people called me crazy.

I sat at the station for a long time.

Rebooked a ticket and went to Luoyang.

I went there many years ago.At that time, I was withdrawn and often liked to get into the wrong corner. I came here when I ran away from home after a big fight with my dad.

There is a very talkative landlady there. I have rented her house. She always likes to plant some flowers, plants, vegetables and fruits in her small yard, and sometimes she will give me some.

Sometimes I envy the landlady's life, sitting leisurely collecting rent, and running around with my little grandson.

My stepmother is a very good person, she even sent someone to look for me when I ran away from home, she took care of me even more than my father.But I have no feelings for her.

Probably this time, no one will look for me.

I am no longer that honorable young master of the Lin family.

When I found the familiar place, the small courtyard has become a very modern entertainment center, and the urbanization and ruralization reforms are so fast that people are caught off guard.In just a few short years, the world can be turned upside down.

I checked in at any hotel, and I curled up in bed and slept all night.Woke up, fell asleep again, woke up again, fell asleep again, over and over again.

I couldn't help picking up my phone to check, Jiang Huaiyuan had already been blacklisted by me, and I still habitually turned on intercepted messages and intercepted calls to find traces of him.

Pulled into the blacklist, pulled out, and pulled in again, so repeatedly, I sometimes forget whether I have pulled him in or not.

The screen is full of Qin Huai's name.

I called Qin Huai, Qin Huai picked up the phone and began to curse: "Lin Chen, are you crazy?"

The background sounds are Mother Qin's voice of "Oh, Xiao Qin, why are you scolding Ah Chen so fiercely?"

Qin Huai was stunned for a while, then asked me where I was, I said I was in Luoyang, maybe I would leave tomorrow, I don't know where to go.

Then I remembered that when I was in Japan, Jiang Huaiyuan said that we will stay wherever we go. When he said it, I had an unrealistic romantic fantasy of going to the ends of the earth together.

Qin Huai said, don't leave yet, wait for me.