He is cold and distant

Chapter 88

The fish in the yard were dead, he said, and something was buried too deep for the light to see.

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For countless nights, Lu Chenxi sat alone on the bed again, just in the dark all the time, with his eyes open, no sleepiness at all, leaving only a blank mind.

His father is often busy in other places, so the number of times he goes home in a week can be counted on his fingers.

But the important reason why Lu Chenxi couldn't sleep was not this one, it was something he did when he was very young.

At that time, his father and mother were both there, and it seemed that the whole family was happy and happy. At first, Lu Chenxi thought so too.

But one day, he saw what he shouldn't have seen. That time, his father was on a business trip, and he took a nap in his room.

After sleeping for a while, after waking up, he seemed to hear voices in his parents' room not far away.

He thought it was his father who came back early, he was a little happy, and walked over there happily.

But when he walked to the door, it was not his father's voice, which made him feel a little strange.

And it sounded like it belonged to a man. He thought it was his mother who had something to discuss with others, so he stopped at the door and didn't go in.

But the conversation between the two people inside seemed to be a bit long. When Lu Chenxi was about to fall asleep, the door was opened, and he was caught off guard and fell to the ground.

The drowsiness was suddenly driven away. He stood up and looked at the two people in the room. Their expressions seemed to be a little flustered.

"Mother, are you talking to this uncle?" Lu Chenxi and Lu Mu were talking.

Mother Lu smiled awkwardly, "Yes, I'm talking to him."

"You've finished talking, hurry up and go." Mother Lu looked at the person next to her, her voice seemed to be urging.

"Okay." The man smiled and walked out.

"Mother, when will Father come back?" Lu Chenxi asked Lu Mu.

"Your father will be back the day after tomorrow." Mother Lu smiled and hugged Lu Chenxi, "Did you miss him?"

"Yes." Lu Chenxi nodded and said back to Lu Mu.

"We'll see you soon." Mother Lu told Lu Chenxi, "But, you can't tell your father about today's matter, you know?"

"Why?" Lu Chenxi asked Lu Mu with a little puzzlement.

"That uncle and I are talking about secret matters." Mother Lu said in a mysterious tone, "We can't let other people know, does Chen Xi understand?"

"Can't father too?" Lu Chenxi seemed to understand, and only asked Lu's mother this question.

"No." Lu Mu and Lu Chenxi pulled the hook, "This is a little secret between me and Chen Xi, and no second person should know."

"Okay." Lu Chenxi nodded, "I will help mother keep the secret."

Later, as Lu Chenxi grew up, just when he was about to forget about this incident, that man flashed past his eyes again.

He is no longer the age when he was ignorant, so he already has a clear understanding of this matter.

That day, Lu Chenxi was alone with his father, and he asked his father, "Father, do you love my mother?"

"You child..." Father Lu looked at Lu Chenxi with some amusement, "What are you asking? Of course I love your mother, and I also love you as a child."

"What if mother doesn't love you anymore?" Lu Chenxi continued to ask Father Lu, "Have you thought about it?"

"You...why would you ask such bad words?" Father Lu just sent Lu Chenxi away, "Don't make trouble, this is impossible, you go and have fun."

Lu Chenxi walked out, just murmured, "Is it impossible?"

The corner of his mouth suddenly appeared, a smile that didn't fit his age.

On this day, his father went on a business trip again, and Lu Chenxi pestered his mother, "Mom, shall we go play by the river?"

"What does Chenxi want to play?" Mother Lu has always been fond of Lu Chenxi, and rarely refuses his requests.

"I want to go fishing by the river." Lu Chenxi turned back to Lu's mother, "My classmates told me that they caught a lot of fish in the river."

"Okay, I'm going to get the fishing gear, you wait for me here, okay?" Mother Lu asked Lu Chenxi.

Lu Chenxi nodded, smiled and said, "Okay."

Mother Lu went to the supplies room, took out all the things she needed, and then waved to Lu Chenxi, "Chenxi, let's go now."

Lu Chenxi stepped forward and took Lu's mother's hand. Ten minutes later, the two went to the river together, but the location was a bit remote.

"Chenxi, are you sure there are fish in this river?" Mother Lu asked Lu Chenxi as she looked at the water area which was not too large.

"Then mother, you can go boating with me." Lu Chenxi pointed at a fishing boat not far away, "There is a boat there."

"Okay." Mother Lu responded to Lu Chenxi with a smile, "Chenxi can play whatever he wants."

The two then boarded the fishing boat, surrounded by lotus leaves and aquatic plants, but there were no people there except Lu Chenxi, his mother and his son.

After paddling for a while, the fishing boat stopped moving forward. Mother Lu thought that there was some obstacle in the water, but she didn't think that she had just walked to the side of the boat, ready to check.

Suddenly she heard the sound of Lu Chenxi falling into the water, she hurriedly turned around, jumped into the water, and went to save her child.

The waves in the water lasted for a while, and people nearby came to rescue them. Lu Chenxi and Lu's mother were sent to the hospital together.

Only Lu Chenxi survived, but Mother Lu could not save her life.

"Chen Xi, what's going on?" Father Lu rushed to the hospital immediately after knowing the situation, but he was heartbroken when he learned that Mother Lu had died.

He sat in the ward, waiting for his child to wake up, waiting for someone to tell him a process.

"Father, I want my mother to go out and play with me." Lu Chenxi's face was pale and his voice was weak, "But I was so happy that I didn't pay attention and fell into the water."

"My mother also jumped into the water to save me..." Lu Chenxi sobbed slightly, "How is mother now?"

"Get a good rest first." Father Lu couldn't bear to tell Lu Chenxi the real situation, "I'll see you again later."

After finishing speaking, Father Lu seemed to be afraid that Lu Chenxi would chase after him and ask him something, so he walked quickly to the direction outside the ward and walked out.

Lu Chenxi watched Lu's father walk away, but smiled at the corner of his mouth, and said softly, "Mother, look, I told you to keep it a secret, but now I still haven't told anyone else about it."

"I'm a good and trustworthy boy." The corner of Lu Chenxi's mouth continued to smile.

Afterwards, Lu Chenxi was in the hospital, rested for a few days, and then left the hospital. Father Lu did not hide the fact that his mother was no longer there.

After Lu Chenxi found out, he just said to Father Lu: "Father, I will only have you from now on."

Father Lu was afraid that Lu Chenxi would not be able to bear it, so he hugged him and comforted him softly, "Chenxi, I will take good care of you in the future."

"If there is anything that can't be solved, it's okay to tell my father instead of your mother." Father Lu continued.

Lu Chenxi looked at the leaves not far away that had just been blown by the wind and fell on the window sill. After staring at them for a long time, he replied softly to Father Lu, "Okay."

After this incident happened, Lu Chenxi had nightmares for a long time. He dreamed that his mother looked at him sadly and asked him why.

He didn't answer her, but she kept asking, making noise in his ears. He was tired, so he chose to wake up directly, and then had no sleep all night.

With the passage of time, such symptoms seem to have improved, but only a little bit.

When he was older, Lu Chenxi went to a new school, and a lot of inexplicable information suddenly appeared in his mind. After he realized it, he just smiled.

In that high school, he met a few interesting people. In fact, he was not very interested in Mu Yuanzhu, but it made him feel amused.

Bian Fanxu's active approach made him feel more interesting, so he used him like that, until the end, when he did something that hurt Bian Zimo, he didn't regret it.

Afterwards, he ran away, but as he walked, somehow, he seemed to return to the original point, and all the people and things were restored again, and there was another Lu Chenxi at the same time as him.

But his memory, compared to before, sometimes becomes confused, and the consciousness and thoughts in his mind will be reversed.

It even gets in the way at times, actions that he is ready to perform.

But it doesn't matter, it's a blessing to be alive.

After he figured out the situation, he chose a person to hide in the dark, so that no one could discover his existence. This time, he still chose to use Bian Fanxu.

But Bian Fanxu changed, he didn't listen to him, yeah...he forgot, he didn't know him, but he didn't want to give up.

Later, he planned to do some bad things again, but A Guan refused, and Bian Fanxu seemed to remember him and was stopping him.

He felt a little sad in his heart. He knew that he would not live for a long time. He had dreams all night, and his body became more and more weak and sleepy, and his appetite was poor.

These are telling him that he can't last long.

He drove Bian Fanxu out. He didn't understand why this person knew so many things and still chose to stay by his side. Sometimes, he wanted to kill himself.

But think about it or forget it, he has no qualifications to live, and no reason to die, this is the established fate of teasing people.

That day, the setting sun outside seemed to dye the clouds in the sky into a large area of ​​orange. Lu Chenxi looked into the yard, still waiting for him, no one left.

I don't know what Bian Fanxu did, but at this moment he was lying on the table with a clear and quiet face.

There was a gentle smile on Lu Chenxi's face. This time, he chose not to tell lies, nor to lie to him again.

"Fanxu." He spoke softly and called him.

Bian Fanxu heard the voice, looked at the person sitting opposite him, and smiled, "Chen, you're awake."

"Your brother said that Mu Yuanzhu is stupid." Lu Chenxi stretched out his hand, gently stroking his frizzy hair, "Why are you even more stupid than him?"

"Because of you..." Bian Fanxu was still smiling, as if he hadn't changed.

"Fanxu..." Lu Chenxi approached Fanxu, put his head lightly on his lap, watching the birds flying by in the sky, "I'm tired too."

"When we meet next time, I will put your name in mine." Lu Chenxi looked at the sunset in the sky, "I will treat you seriously once, okay?"

"Okay." Bian Fanxu responded to Lu Chenxi, "Then Chen, how about your name Fanchen?"

Lu Chenxi's vision became more and more blurred, and he heard Bian Fanxu's voice.

Ah... Fanchen, the name sounds very good, as bright as Fanchen.

He was about to say yes, but his consciousness had completely dissipated, leaving only darkness.