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Chapter 28 I Saved 1 Life

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After going through a bloodbath, the last people left are martial arts masters like Uncle Rong Cheng and Uncle Wu, or people like Lao Zhang and Sister Hua who have a little kung fu but pay more attention to taking care of me.

Ruyun is different from me. As a member of the Jiufang family, she has inherited the people's consistent brilliance and understanding, but she is just an ordinary child, not like me, whose mind does not match her age, like a monster.As long as I treat her well, Ruyun will still forgive me after a long time.

After all, we have no choice but to depend on each other.

In fact, there were very few people left, but after arriving at the Bronze Sect, there were two more people in the small guard of the prince—the old head and the head's wife.

Although they are people from the Jianghu, but they were favored by the former royal family, so they were loyal to the former royal family and accepted me.After accepting me, they did not rebel against the current royal family, and my life seemed to have finally returned to normal. No one mentioned the restoration of the country anymore, and no one would die because of me.

I don't seem to be a prince anymore, and I've never really been a prince.When I got the name Wang Yi, I was actually very happy, even if I was just a sweeping servant of the Bronze Sect, it was much better than continuing to bear the surname of Lu and not live in peace.

If there is anything unusual, it is Wang Xi, the son of the head of the sect.

I remember seeing him before.At that time, he wanted to borrow my hand to get a jade flute. I knew it was not something to please, so I made a gesture to get it, then deliberately smashed the vase, and called the elders with a loud noise.

Maybe it was remembered by him at that time. After meeting again, he seemed to dislike me very much. After all, he is the young master of the Bronze School. I could only avoid him as much as possible, even if I met him, I didn't dare to look at him directly, and I lowered my posture as much as possible, almost prostrate on the ground, but for some reason, his attitude suddenly took a big turn, always Follow me and do some weird things.

I have never met such a peer, say he is bad, but not really bad, say he is good, but he always does something that makes me feel at a loss, I don't know what to do, I can only try to hide with him.Wang Xi got worse and worse, but what he did was all ridiculous.

To be honest, no one has chased me so hard before. Not only do I not hate him, but I am quite happy.Thinking about it now, I was completely lacking in love and dizzy back then, but I will be very happy if anyone is willing to pay attention to me.It's embarrassing to admit that I lack love, but now I don't have to care about that anymore, I just lack love, and I just like Wangxi.

After all, I have already died. As a dead person, it is so hypocritical to care about this and that.Anyway, Wang Xi won't know, so there's no need for me to restrain myself.

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A few months after I became Wang Yi, Wei Hanju came.

Aunt Wei... It's a catastrophe for my peaceful life. Those pranks are really much higher than that.But I always feel inexplicably that everything she does makes sense.If she hadn't tied me to the beam of the ancestral hall, Wang Xi wouldn't have come to rescue me, then I don't know how long it would be before I dared to talk to Wang Xi... Actually, I've always wanted to talk to him, but The fear of speaking up himself would make him even more unhappy.

In fact, from the moment Wuxi put me down from the beam, I seemed to have a vague premonition that I might spend my whole life with this person.

When I was young, I didn't think much about it, I just knew that he seemed awkward, but he really helped me.Although it was not a life-threatening incident, thinking about it now, he was the only one who came to save me because I was me.Wang Xi didn't know my identity. To him, I was just an adopted child of the head of the sect. My surname was Wang, not Lu.

I understand, this idea is also quite awkward, if I am not me, who else can I be?But to other people, I am not me, at least not Wang Yi.

To be on the safe side, only a few people know my identity, not even Liu Sisi.She was sent to an ordinary family to live the life of ordinary people like an ordinary girl. Because of her young age and being pampered and raised, Da Qiao's old officials did not place high hopes on her. Since she cannot be used to restore the country, then she has no Focus on the value of protection.

Originally named Lu Si, pseudonym Liu Sisi, such a pseudonym with similar pronunciation is actually very dangerous. I once wanted to change her name, but was stopped by Lao Zhang.The reason is frighteningly straightforward-if our identities are revealed one day in the future, we can push her out.At that time, everyone will speak in unison, saying that they are escorting the princess to take refuge here, and I can continue to flee.

When I heard this reason for the first time, it was like a blow to my head.

I didn't expect that the old ministers and knights who seemed to have returned to their ordinary lives were still thinking about returning to the country.If they hadn't been thinking about this important event, they wouldn't have treated us brothers and sisters favorably.

Uncle Wu, Sister Hua, Lao Zhang, and others, I can no longer treat these people who fled to the Bronze Sect with me as servants.If anything, I feel like they're all my family, and even if they don't think so, that's okay, given enough time, we'll become family.

But Liu Sisi's name made me feel that no matter how close I am with them, there is still a distinction between master and servant.As long as I am a child of the former emperor, I will never be able to be their real family.

Now that I think about it, this is the unreasonable trouble of my short-lived adolescence, right?Obviously they are willing to sell their lives for me, but I still care about whether they treat me as a real family member.It is true that we have no blood relationship, and it is impossible to be a real family. As long as they are willing to treat me as a family, I should be satisfied.

Maybe that's how I got my comeuppance.

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A peaceful life can really make people numb. I became a fool who would throw a tantrum and cry before Wuxi went down the mountain. I completely forgot who I was and what I was carrying.

But others did not forget.

The reason why the Bronze School was criticized back then was that they hid the remnants of the previous dynasty and wanted to make waves in the peaceful and prosperous age.

The first to speak out was Hua Yumen's sect master, Hua Qizheng.

After the Jiufang Clan wiped out the sect, my substitutes died one after another. The imperial court would only think that I was dead, and the Huayu Sect shouldn't have investigated it.

It should be so.

Everyone thought that Hua Qizheng exposed Jiufang Rong because he was dissatisfied with Jiufang's family. When the old emperor was alive, he observed the wind direction. As soon as the old emperor was buried, he immediately attacked Jiufang's family.

Uncle Rong Cheng and others feel that Hua Qizheng has fulfilled his wish and will not continue to hunt us down, and Hua Qizheng does not know my true identity, so it cannot be regarded as a threat for the time being.Even if we want to avenge the Jiufang family, we can't scare the snake away. After all, as former ministers, once our identities are exposed, we have to deal with the current court and Huayumen at the same time.

Even I thought so, and lived in the Bronze School with peace of mind.

But Hua Qizheng did not stop there. After several years of silence, he joined hands with the imperial court again, but this time it was not me who was targeted, but the Bronze Gate.

The night before the incident broke out, I was escorted down the mountain by Aunt Wu Shuwei and others.When going down the mountain, Mo Yiba let me go first, and after going down the mountain, Mo Yi's sister-in-law entrusted the child to us.

Later, I was intercepted and killed by disciples of Huayumen on the way. The other party took Rong Chengxun, who hadn't escaped in time, as a hostage. Uncle Rong Cheng asked me to go first.

Uncle Wang, who was not very close to me, hid me and others in the cellar before the officers and soldiers arrived.

With Jiang He standing in front of him, it would be very easy to be discovered if he moved again. You San was still smiling and boarded the boat alone.

Lao Liu, the violinist, gave me his precious root-like violin, and asked me to pawn it in a pawnshop that knows the goods and is fair, and I am not allowed to sell it cheaply.

The yellow blind man who has been a half-immortal for most of his life told me that he has great merit in this life and that he will be able to bear a fairy fetus in his next life.

Grandma Xu carried all the hidden weapons she had refined over the years, but left me a set of hair needles.

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I saw the head couple holding hands, lying quietly behind Wang Xi.

I thought this was the last, I really thought this was the last, I didn't expect it, this is not just about me, the remnants of the previous dynasty, the whole Bronze Sect is the goal of Huayumen, every Huayu The disciples all want to share a piece of the pie, they want the entire Bronze Sect to be destroyed.

So Sister Hua left without saying goodbye, and went to Huayumen.Sister Hua used to be a court lady of the former court, and some people recognize her. The purpose of her visit is to let others know that she is related to Huayumen, so that Huayumen can't clean up her relationship with the previous dynasty, and give Bronze Sect a respite.

At that time, people in the Jianghu didn't know the reason behind this, and Wang Xi, who was in a state of desperation, didn't know about it either. He unconditionally believed in me who came back after running away. Press down and stand up again.

He was able to pull himself together, how could I tell him the truth.

When Wang Xi handed over the position of deputy head to me, I could only smile at him and couldn't say a word, he just thought I was too excited, but I knew that as soon as I started to make a sound, Then I'll tell it all.

Wang Xi has a quick mind and can tell right from wrong, so I shouldn't tell him the truth, and I never want him to become the second me.The enmity between me and Hua Yumen has nothing to do with him, but what I owe him must be repaid.

I think that Sister Hua must also feel that we owe too much to Wangxi and the Bronze Sect, and she wants to make up for some of it.

She has no plans to come back.

So later, Uncle Wu didn't plan to come back.

They are all gone.

In their generation, in the end, only Lao Zhang and Aunt Wei remained.

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Until now, I am still thinking, if I am kinder, more responsible...or more decisive, if I can restore the country, I will rack my brains and work hard, and if I cannot restore the country, I will break up with them decisively, is it later? None of those things will happen.

Is there a step I could have taken right?Is there a trick I can use to stop what's coming?

I have been thinking about these questions for many years, knowing that I can’t change the past even if I get the answers, but I just can’t stop thinking. They are like amulets written by a celestial master, sealing my deformed heart that I can no longer control, allowing me to be an ordinary person. people live.

If I could choose, I really hope that my mother would wake up and escape from other people's control. When the midwife asked her to protect the child and the adult, she could resolutely say "protect me".

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The assassination of the head of the Bronze Sect began, but this is no longer so scary to me.

After going through the previous catastrophe, I seem to have become more hardened, but I just came to kill me. Such a thing is not a disaster.Only those who are used to the blue sky and day will be afraid of walking at night, but those who have been struggling at night will not be afraid.

I behaved very strangely, but I couldn't feel my own strangeness anymore, I just alternated back and forth between great joy and great sorrow in a daze.

How strange, I can still feel joy, but I am just happy, inexplicable, unimaginable, until I wake up one day, I don't know why—for the first time since I was born, I forget things.

Occasionally, I would forget the fact that Uncle Wu and the others had left me, and my memory began to play tricks. It deleted the news of the death of my important people without authorization, and spontaneously made a reasonable completion of the disappearance of those people.

Maybe it was too painful when I was awake, so when I forgot the reality, the joy came very violently, but once I woke up, it was like re-experiencing those pasts, and the pain and sadness that had been refurbished would hit me again.After a long time, joy seems to be linked with the pain that followed. As long as I am happy for a moment, it must be accompanied by inexplicable panic. When the memory is restored, the panic is confirmed, and so on. turned into torture.This makes me look like a lunatic, no, I should not say it looks like, I am indeed insane, but the insanity is not so obvious, there is still a lot of mentality remaining, it seems that I am no different from ordinary people.

I subconsciously avoided Wang Xi when I was abnormal, so the first person who discovered my abnormality was Aunt Wei.

She inherited the mermaid physique from her ancestors. At that time, she had already planned to escape to death, change her name and leave this place, but my strangeness made her worry endlessly.Aunt Wei was afraid that her death would further irritate me, so she told me a secret that she planned to keep secret for the rest of her life.

Then she gave me many clothes.

"Listen to me, if you are so sad that you can't help it, try to play them." She said, pinning a hairpin on my head, "You don't have to accept the reality, even if you know it's fake , just pretend they're alive."

Aunt Wei understands too well, she always sees clearly better than anyone else, even the methods she said are effective, doing as she said, I gradually become like a normal person.

From then on, I started playing dead people as if they were still alive, living in me.

The author has something to say:

I originally wanted to write about Wang Yi's flight in detail, but it was too cruel. I was crying while writing, it was too inhuman... so I didn't dare to write in detail

It's going to be so much better in the past...everyone