Balance beam

Chapter 25

The soot between Bai Li's fingers was a few centimeters long and still bent there without falling. In the quiet space, no one spoke. He looked at Sonia stupidly, and Sonia also looked at him. After a long time, Sonia raised her hand and shook it in front of him, "Don't be dazed, what do you think?"

"I, I" Bo Li stammered, "What do I think?" What does it have to do with me?After swallowing, Bai Li held his chin and solemnly analyzed, "Sonia, the divorce is a scandal."

Sonia rolled his eyes at him, and sneered indifferently, "Looking at your abilities, you can't even take a joke."

"Heh" Bai Li picked up the tissue and wiped off the cold sweat from shock. Is it a joke?Not a test?He really can't stand such a toss.

At the same time relieved, he was secretly a little upset. Sonia had such an attitude towards their relationship, and she had no plans for the future at all. This was what he was happy to see, but also unwilling.I have always known that those women who stick to me are not just because they like him, but because they are more interested in his generosity. If they are next to a lover who spends money like water, if they can be as elegant as Bai Li, they are very willing to stage a show. A love game.

Therefore, Bai Li felt that Sonia was different from him, at least she fell in love with his people, so parents and wives could look down on him, but she couldn't bear to look down on him.

Of course Sonia didn't really want to divorce Palin, at least it wasn't the right time yet, she didn't want to ruin her family right now.The result of Bai Li's test was as expected at first, but she was still unavoidably frustrated. Knowing and being sure are completely different things, and she felt a fire in her heart.

Sonia would not vent her anger on others, but only on herself. After drinking two bottles of foreign wine, she suddenly felt that those sorrows flew out of her body for a while.

Perrin could smell the strong smell of alcohol since he went up to the second floor, and couldn't help frowning.The wife's alcoholism is a hidden vice, and she dare not expose it in front of the parents, but it is already an open rumor among the servants.In order to restrain her almost addictive habit, Palin once hid her drinks, searched from the closet, under the bed, and the toilet drain cover. The two husband and wife were like playing hide and seek. For a while, Sonia went crazy Driving out in the middle of the night to have fun.

On the surface, Sonia’s life is extravagant and glamorous, but behind her back, she spends her time with her son, husband, alcohol, quitting alcohol, falling in love and falling in love. Every time she faces her son and new love, she will make up her mind to quit. Lovelorn?

Palin pushed open the room worriedly, the bedroom door opened a gap more than a foot long, Palin's shadow was stretched very long, and nothing could be seen in the dark room, and a more intense breath came in, Palin turned his face away Go up and turn on the light, Sonia definitely did not drink less.

Sonia sat slumped on the floor, with her back leaning against the wardrobe, the sudden light irritated her, and she quickly put her arms across her eyes.Palin squatted in front of her and took the bottle away, his expression stern, "Why are you drinking again?"

The corners of Sonia's mouth twitched, and the expression on her face was half-smile and half-cry. Alcohol is a good thing, but troubles are like a loyal dog. Even if they are abandoned by their master, they will still sneak back into her body under the scent.She thought a lot about her childhood, girlhood, and all the past with Palin. The relationship of the past ten years is so easy to let go. She was really sad. When she thought that Palin would leave her one day, she would It was as if a part of the body had been severed, leaving only pain.

Sonia choked up and murmured, "Palin, you are my first love, and I only love you."

Perrin nodded silently.It was precisely because of this that he always felt indebted to her.

"Palin, who was your first love?"

Perrin couldn't remember who his first love was. Before the slender figure of that young man was imprinted in his heart, there were several blurred images. Some people's faces were already blurred, and some people couldn't even remember their names.It is said that the memory of the first person will be deeper, but he is so vague, what he remembers is not the first love but the first H, even at that time, he didn't even know the name of that person.

Palin smiled with the corner of his mouth curled up, and Sonia also smiled, "Isn't Li Jia?"

Li Jia has always been a taboo between their husband and wife. Palin used to dislike this name, but later avoided it on purpose.Now that he suddenly asked in front of her, he was already calm. "Yeah." Palin sat next to her and held Sonia in his arms. "Sonia, stop drinking, okay? Songsong is still young."

At least they have a son, and every time it is the son who pulls her back from the brink of collapse, Palin also feels that Songsong has become more cheerful recently, and he does not want him to be frightened by his mother's changes again. "Sonia, are you in any trouble? If there is anything, tell me, and I will help you solve it."

Sonia smiled and wrapped her arms around her husband's neck, and wiped her tears on his clothes. She was always moved by Palin's inadvertent words, even if it was not the politeness that a husband and wife should have.

Palin wanted her to have a scene more than a drink.She drank alcohol and never ate, because she was anorexic, so it was not a good thing for her body. "Sonia, even if it's just for Songsong's sake, you have to take care of your body." Sonia didn't understand why she didn't want to let go of Palin, treating him as her brother or as her second father That's right, as long as two people are together, there is a feeling of being dependent on each other.

Sonia buried her face in Palin's arms, summoned up her courage and asked Palin in a muffled voice, "Are you still in touch?"

What should come will always come, and it is only through Jiu Jin that he has such courage.

Palin looked at her back with pity, neither saying yes nor no, she was actually the person he didn't want to hurt the last, and he was not afraid of Sonia's troubles every time, but what he feared the most was She is like this now, and the scars are really carved in her heart.After being together for so many years, I can't bear to let her be sad.The emotion between them is not so much more than friendship than love, it's more like a family without blood, and it's hard to get rid of even if it's so rich.

Sonia trembled slightly and waited for the answer. Palin just patted her on the back, "Don't think about it." Tears flowed out involuntarily. Sonia half-kneeled in front of Palin, and solemnly advised "Palin , Forget about Li Jia, don’t have any contact with him anymore, you can find anyone, I will help you find whoever you want. But Li Jia can’t, have you forgotten that he sold you?” Pei Lin's expression was serious, and his heart throbbed. Sonia hit his vitals, and he didn't want to face it. He wanted to get rid of Sonia's restraint. Sonia held his face in both hands and straightened Palin's head. Let him look directly at himself, "Palin, it's fine if I'm crazy, but what if you're going crazy? Have you thought about the consequences?"

"Palin, I know you love him as much as I love you."

Palin muttered to himself, "Yes, I love him." Palin clearly realized that even if Li Jia hurt him, he still loves him now.

"Don't you know what kind of person Li Jia is? Has he done a bad thing? No, he just doesn't want your heart."

Sonia was right, and Palin closed his eyes for a moment, "Don't worry about our business, I know it well."

Sonia let go of the shackles, put her hands on her head, and felt dizzy. She had a lot to say, because her thoughts were too chaotic, and she was always poorly organized. The chaos made her hurt, "Forget it, your business I don't want to care about it anymore." She cried sadly, not so much as a declaration but as a vent, "I'm over this day anyway." Instantly she looked up again like an electric shock, and Sonia looked at Palin anxiously, "Palin Lin, are you going to abandon me and Songsong, and leave this family behind?"

Palin sighed and shook his head, and hugged her to the bed, "Trust me, it won't." While straightening Sonia's hair, watching her gradually settle down in his hands, "Trust me, Sonia, I won't leave you guys , won’t get a divorce. Don’t drink any more.” His wife was breathing heavily, and gradually fell asleep. Palin stood by the bed and watched her sleeping face. Covering his face, he leaned tiredly against the wall of the corridor, and slowly looked around with dull eyes.

Jiang Jiang gave his father a strong dose of medicine.

Dabao has always wanted to hold a party at their house, but Jiang Jiang never agreed. This is his house and not Dabao's. He does all the after-sales work, so he doesn't want to cause trouble for himself.However, in view of his father's recent bad performance, Jiang Jiang invited everyone to his home. The students all knew that his father was away on business trips for a long time, so they thought that he would not be here today. They sang and danced happily, and the children even set up a table Mahjong.The rest sat in the living room playing games and playing poker. There were people inside and outside the room, and two children were quietly watching pornography online in Jiang Jiang's bedroom.

Only Da Bao nervously pulled Jiang Jiang aside, "Where's your dad? I saw your dad go out this morning. Where did he go?"

Jiang Jiang took the cigarette in his hand, frowned and pushed him away with his elbow, "Don't worry about it, where is the beer? Why didn't you take the beer?"

Dabao wiped the sweat off his face, went to the door and moved the beer case cover to the balcony. "Jiang Jiang, if my mother finds out that I stole cigarettes, she will scold me to death."

Jiang Jiang picked up the tinfoil and tossed the cigarettes to everyone one by one. He came back and took a look, "That's all?" Dabao sat on the case cover and wished him luck.

Jiang Jiang patted him on the shoulder, "Forget it, these are enough, you are serious, whoever told you to steal it, you just said it was a customer and sold it."

"Fart, my mother is downstairs, there are only a few people coming in and out, sell it to ghosts."

"Then if you don't want to go down, take the time to quietly put the money back."

Dabao looked at him with a dark face. He had a lot of opinions on Jiang Jiang, very big.This brat is doing it. If it were his family, if he dared to do this, he would have played him like a poker card.

Of course, Uncle Li did something wrong, but Jiang Jiang had to take his father's anger away, and he didn't know how the old man's heart could withstand it, and whether he needed an ambulance.Jiang Jiang was very calm. He squeezed to the table to look at the cards. A group of half-sized boys were puffing and puffing, and they were talking about what they thought they were very mature men.

As soon as Li Jia entered the community, he heard the deafening music. He wondered who was so devoid of public morality.

Li Jia’s complexion changed. He went shopping. Jiang Jiang, who was usually in front of him, didn’t want to go. It's almost used up. Dad, I really want to eat canned peaches. When you go, go to the second floor and buy me some beef jerky from Inner Mongolia."

Although the father and son reconciled as before, Jiang Jiang still treated him indifferently for two days, and acted like a baby to him on a rare occasion. Li Jia went straight to the supermarket without hesitation, wishing to buy back everything Jiang Jiang liked.After a lot of shopping, I found that I couldn't handle that much at all.I asked the people in the mall to coordinate. Although there was a cart full of goods piled up like a hill, only bulk purchases would be delivered. Obviously, the value created by Li Jia was not worth their gas money.

So the person in charge suggested that he buy another large home appliance. The home appliance was within the scope of delivery, and the items purchased by Li Jia could be sent away at the same time.

After thinking about it, Li Jia felt that this method was feasible, and the washing machine at home had already had a problem, and it was useless to put it on the balcony all the time.Jiang Jiang euphemistically claimed that washing by hand is cleaner than washing by machine. The father and son don't have many clothes, and the sheets and quilts used by the men are also very simple, so Li Jia has been using the washboard all the time, and never thought about buying another one.After careful selection today, I found that there are endless types, from program controllers and electronic boards, from inner tanks to sealing rings, from pulsators to drums, from electronic water distribution to fully automatic integration, Li Jia just listened to the explanation and was already busy. In a sweat, I finally chose a model with high cost performance from the brand that Jiang Jiang once praised.Although the manufacturer is from Germany, the sales promotion strategy is in line with the domestic market. There are a bunch of gifts, cups, bowl sets and a coffee machine.

Li Jia held a bunch of gifts and squeezed into a group of goods and drove along with the car. Although the road was bumpy and the air was so cramped and stuffy, he still happily imagined his son's excited expression when he saw the coffee machine.According to the boy's stingy habits, he will definitely praise him for his achievements today.

Li Jia lived on the third floor, and the machine was very heavy. The delivery staff was so tired that their necks were stretched out. Li Jia apologized repeatedly, "Sorry, the steps are a bit high. There is no way. The first and second floors are all related, and you are tired." The result. , To give such a shock at the door of the house, it really feels like a thunderbolt.

Crowds of people were crowded in the house, and the noise kept coming and going. They were so devoted to shouting that they didn't even respond the first time Li Jia came in.A pair of male and female students were still dancing with their arms around each other, their foreheads pressed against their foreheads.

Li Jiazhen's blood surged, suppressed his anger, led the people to move the washing machine in, and then discussed with the installer how to place it, how to drill holes in the bathroom, and how many extension pipes were needed.

The children called uncle timidly, and then pulled each other to evacuate quickly. The atmosphere in the room was very awkward.

Li Jia was sure that Jiang Jiang was trying to annoy him on purpose, and Jiang Jiang asked like nothing happened, "Dad, are you back so soon?" Then he put the things away in different categories, stuffed the food into the refrigerator, and put the pasta in the locker. The seasonings are placed on the hanging cabinets, and the cleaning supplies are all placed in the bathroom.

Li Jia told himself to be calm, and finally sent the installer away, put on an apron to cook, wash rice, cook and stir-fry, sat on the sofa to rest out of breath, and finally walked over to Jiangjiang and asked him, "Dad, do you eat apples?" ?” erupted.

Li Jia shook his head coldly, "Jiang Jiang, what's going on today?"

Jiang Jiang pursed his lips, looking like a fool, "What's the matter? They? They heard that I was sick, so they came to have a look. Isn't this a holiday for the school celebration? More people come here. Look at your face, it seems It's like we did something that shouldn't be done. Other parents are not like this. When I went to my classmate's house, their parents were very enthusiastic. You offended all my friends, how embarrassing I am."

For the first time, Li Jia slapped his son because of his disappointment.Jiang Jiang's face was turned to one side, and the five fingerprints on his cheeks were clearly visible. Jiang Jiang slowly turned his head, glanced at his father, turned and opened the door to go out, and ran away from home.

After calming down for a long time, Li Jia realized that Jiang Jiang was fighting against him, and rushed out, but his son was nowhere to be seen.

When Li Jia saw anyone, he asked, "Did you see Jiang Jiang?" The Da Bao, who was still hiding in the small shop, always kept an eye on the movements of the father and son, so he rushed out immediately and told him, "I saw him going that way." gone."

When Li Jia caught up with Jiang Jiang, Jiang Jiang was going to sleep with his head down and neck stuck. "Where are you going, Jiang Jiang?" Li Jia followed behind, panting due to excessive physical exertion.Jiang Jiang didn't speak, just kept his head down and walked away.

After walking for more than an hour from his home to the train station, Li Jia realized where Jiang Jiang was going, his face turned pale, and he stood in front of Jiang Jiang in front of the ticket hall, grabbing his son's shoulders with both hands.Jiang Jiang has grown very tall. Looking at his son who is only half a head shorter than him, Li Jia feels powerless all over his body.It won't be long before he catches up with himself, or surpasses himself. "Jiang Jiang, are you angry with your father?"

"Because I hit you?"

Jiang Jiang shook his head and protested silently, Li Jia was extremely wronged, "Then you don't want me?"

"It's you who don't want me."

"Why? I only have you." Li Jia reviewed his mistakes, "I'm sorry, I didn't care enough for you recently, so don't be angry with Dad."

Jiang Jiang shook his head, "Dad, I won't leave, I just want to be calm."

"You came to the train station to calm down?" Subconsciously, Li Jia was afraid that his son would leave him, so he held his son's hand tightly and walked back. Jiang Jiang followed behind with his mouth tightly pursed, his eyes much more peaceful.

Looking at his father's painful back, Jiang Jiang's heart softened for a moment and he still said, "Dad, you can't leave me again."

Early the next morning, Jiang Jiang bought Xiaolongbao for Li Jia and made hot porridge, and the father and son ate in peace.

"Dad, I'm leaving, are you sad?" Li Jia nodded, tears almost welling up in his eyes, holding his son's hand last night, and refusing to separate while sleeping, he realized how important this child is in his life. "But sooner or later you will leave me"

Jiang Jiang opened his mouth wide in surprise, "Why? Dad, I will never leave you, and you must never leave me, okay? Take me with you wherever you go, and we will always be together."

"Silly child, when you grow up, you will think that your father is in the way." The father showed a smile that could not be described as bitter or calm, as faint as a dandelion swaying in the spring breeze.

"No." Jiang Jiang vowed.

Li Jia touched his son's hair with a smile, "That's good, we will always be together."

Jiang Jiang looked at his father and smiled brightly, "Dad, let's eat."

"Okay." Li Jia stared blankly at that youthful face, and Jiang Jiang's expression was exactly the same as when he was young.