Balance beam

Chapter 12

Li Jia lay on the bed and rolled over. Palin was on the plane at three o'clock in the morning, and he was neither invited nor said that he would send him off.Just thinking about it in my heart, I often look at the time and feel tormented.

He took off the ice pack on Jiang Jiang's forehead, stretched out his hand to feel the heat, the fever subsided a lot, his breathing was slow and light, he still couldn't sleep well, and he groaned from time to time.

Li Jia went to the toilet, and the time was already pointing to two o'clock.

Sitting on tiptoe in the living room, lighting the fireworks, the cigarettes were lit up and then silent, and the sound of heavy vehicles slipping by in the distance came from time to time.

After smoking half of it, Li Jia decisively pinched it into the ashtray.

Although he was worried that Jiang Jiang's high fever would not be stable, and that there would be relapses in the second half of the night, he still thought about Palin more in his heart. Luckily, he thought that there should be no problem, so he put on his clothes and went straight to the airport.

There is only one airport in this city, and only one running field.

Perrin leaned back on the chair in the lounge area, the newspaper lightly covering his face.

After the winking driver finished hauling the luggage, he tore off the newspaper with his hands, "Mr. Qian, do you want to go inside and wait?"

Perrin sat up halfway, let out a long oh, yawned lightly, rubbed his eyes, and looked towards the entrance and exit of the gate diagonally behind.

The large transparent glass, the metal iron frame is shining brightly, the interior is brightly lit, the window is dark, and there is a cold wind, and the dark clouds and stars are almost invisible, making the environment darker and more gloomy.The violent wind was blowing on the large building, accompanied by hissing and roaring from time to time, as if a beast was hiding.

Palin didn't expect Li Jia to come, and deeply felt that this kind of impulsiveness was not like Li Jia's style, and he still had a vague reservation in his heart, looking around unrealistically.Fold the newspaper, "What time is it?" After getting the reply, he exhorts, "Don't go far, I'm going to smoke a cigarette." He patted his slightly crumpled trouser legs, and as soon as he stood up, he saw a man rushing into the door and squinting. He squinted his eyes and looked around.

Palin greeted him with a smile, grabbed Li Jia's arm and led him outside. Li Jia looked at him happily, "Palin, you haven't left yet? That's great! I thought it was too late."

Perrin looked back at him, his eyes lingering on Li Jia's lips, "The weather is bad, it's delayed. It should take half an hour before takeoff." When crossing the parking lot, the last bus stood in front of him. Someone passed by.

Li Jia's heart beat faster, and the hand held by Palin trembled slightly. Palin increased his strength and squeezed his hand even tighter.

Because there is a water bar on the side of the waiting hall, pink PPT sponge boards are lined up against the wall to form a partition setting. Palin squeezed Li Jia into the concave corner, and the two figures were completely hidden.The runway in the distance is being prepared, and the non-stop traffic of delivery vehicles can be vaguely seen.

Li Jia and Palin looked at each other, wishing to see each other in their eyes.

Li Jia leaned half against the thick glass wall, Palin squeezed between his legs, Palin held Li Jia's face and kept kissing, his fingers slid down the neckline, and hurriedly unbuttoned the buckle and belt, Li Jia thought Helping Palin undress, Palin held down his hand, "No, I'll do it."

Palin unbuckled his belt and loosened the buttons of his trousers, and took out the contents for Li Jia to hold.

Perrin put his hands under Li Jia's armpit, half hugging him, sucking and ravaging Li Jia's chest.

Li Jia threw his head back and wrapped his arms around Palin's neck to stabilize himself.

Palin kissed all the way down, the tip of his tongue was so skillful that he squeezed it in circles, causing Li Jia to scream out loud for a while, Palin's thing slipped out of his hand, made a bang, and then lightly flicked on Li Jia's belly.

Li Jia gasped heavily, and instead pressed Palin's hair with his hand.That stick was wrapped by his lips, making him almost want to fly to heaven.Every time I was blocked at the moment of rush hour, I would come back.Li Jiayin held back his deep breaths, tossing and tossing twice and three times, almost laughing out loud. "Palin~ what are you doing?"

Perrin raised his thighs, and using both hands and mouth, filled the back of Li Jia with saliva and tongue.Although it was lubricated, Yonglu was still dry, trying to insert the stigma into it, it was so tight that it made people inhale again and again.

Perrin put his hands on Li Jia's hips, "Li Jia, time is too tight." "Well," Li Jia hugged his neck tightly, closed his eyes and nodded, knowing that it was too late for his subtext to expand.

Palin took a deep breath, "You bear it~"

Li Jia let out a cry of "um~", Palin's things had already been squeezed into less than half of it.

Li Jia couldn't help breathing in and relaxing, and Perrin pressed down on his shoulder little by little.Swallowing almost inch by inch, he finally collected all of Perrin's roughness.

Perrin swayed slightly at first, but soon became violent jerks.When Li Jia wanted to leave, Palin suddenly pulled away and left.In the confusion of tearful eyes, Palin's face leaned in, kissed again and again, and the lower part pushed in again. While stroking Li Jia's shiny black and soft hair with his hands, Palin said affectionately, "Wait for me, the arrangements will be made soon." Come right back."

The up and down stimulation was so intense that Li Jia couldn't bite his lip and almost cried out.With Palin covering his mouth tightly, Li Jia's face was flushed red, but his heartbeat was fast and sweet.

Only separated by a layer of glass, there are people coming and going inside, and the empty airport outside, rumbling and roaring.

When it was pulled out, Palin said, "Li Jia is sucking it in." Li Jia shrunk back without any hesitation, and after Palin's things were withdrawn, he just wiped them lightly with a paper towel and took them back cleanly.Seeing that there were no traces of stains on Palin's trousers except for wrinkles, Li Jia couldn't help but heave a sigh of relief.

Sitting on the stone steps, Li Jia shivered involuntarily under the cool breeze.He buttoned up his shirt tremblingly, and put his legs on Palin's shoulders. Palin's fingers turned gently in his acupuncture points, "Li Jia, relax."

The cell phone in Palin's pocket kept vibrating, and he vaguely heard something announced by the loudspeaker in the room. Li Jia pushed Palin's shoulder, "Time is running out, I'll do it myself!" As soon as it was stuffed behind Li Jia, "be careful to wet the pants, I stuffed them inside, and I will clean them up slowly when I go back." He helped Li Jia put on his pants and fasten his belt, tidied his collar, and patted him Dust on the back.

Li Jia leaned weakly in Palin's arms, dragging his legs and walked towards the hall without force. When they were approaching the door, the two stared at each other at the same time while no one was paying attention, kissed quickly and then separated immediately.

"When will you come back?" "Soon, soon." Hugging together after separation, always felt that it was not enough, kissing again and again, panting against each other's cheeks.

Neither of them expected to be so passionate in middle age.

Palin said "I want to take you away."

This is not the first time that they want to take him away. Li Jia knew that it was not feasible, but he couldn't help but imagine the scene of living together, and his cheeks turned red.

Palin walked to the security checkpoint, took off his belt and took off his phone, and smiled at Li Jia when he turned around to be scanned.Li Jia also smiled at him. Although he acted indifferently, his heart sank to the bottom of the valley the moment Palin disappeared.

Knowing that he was sitting in the rest area next door, Li Jia couldn't stop looking in even though he couldn't see a single person.

On the way back, Li Jia looked outside with his arms on the pillow, and the night scene outside the window was desolate in silence.

The warning light on the plane gradually turned into a blurred bright spot, and disappeared into the night sky with Li Jiaji hanging.

As if the heart had been hollowed out, the bitterness of parting lingered on the tip of the tongue.

Rolling down the car window, the cold wind blowing in made people wake up involuntarily, and the fantasy in their mind gradually cooled down.

When Palin's driver shook Li Jia awake, Li Jia realized that he had arrived home.

Holding on to the handle of the stairs, my knees are shaking every time I take a step, and the cloth rubbing against the back shows the intense tenderness not long ago.Now that no one is there, I feel even lonelier.

Jiang Jiang didn't talk much before, but this day's breakfast was unusually quiet, as if he was in a cold war with his father, but the water cup and pills in his hand made Li Jia feel warm.

Obviously he was also a patient, but he found out that he also had a cold.

On the one hand, Jiang Jiang was touched by his father's continuous care all night long. When he got up in the morning and saw his father's tired face, half lying on the side of the bed with his arms under his pillow, a layer of bitterness appeared in his mouth.

Quietly stretched out his hand, and lightly pinned it to Li Jia's throat. Seeing that his father hadn't woken up, he surrounded him with the other hand to form a ring.Jiang Jiang smiled self-deprecatingly, and often saw the words strangling to death in novels. How could it be so easy to strangle a person, and how could it be so powerful?Especially the bewilderment and panic that the other party showed before he was about to die, now facing him?

Of course he wouldn't murder anyone, but he felt depressed and embarrassed. When he took medicine for Li Jia, he couldn't help but imagine that it might be easier to kill him with poison.

Although it was just imagining in his head, Jiang Jiang was still terrified by himself.It seemed that Li Jia was no longer there, waves of grief hit the atrium, and the pain was unbearable.

There is always a time in adolescence when one imagines oneself to be alone, and fantasizes about how one will struggle against a tragic fate, how one will support one's family if one's parents die.But he is different from others, without his father, life seems to collapse.He will not be like Dabao's ignorant younger brother, who thought that he was a child raised by his parents from the trash bin since he was a child. He and his father are dependent on each other and cannot be separated.

Watching his father like he was watching a thief also made Li Jia uneasy. When he went downstairs to buy eggs, he would be interrogated, "Where are you going, what are you doing?"

"Buy eggs? No need, I don't eat egg sauce, I want fried meat sauce."

Jiang Jiang will get angry for no reason, "Dad, why don't you have any plans at all? Didn't you ask clearly whether I picked it up or he brought it over?...Which one of my classmates calls? Just remember the name, I know three students named Gao Wei, and it’s not like you don’t know. Are they from Class [-] of the second year, Class [-] of the third year, or our class?”

"Dad, you want to blame me for calling you again. If I don't tell you, can you do it? Don't you take away the vegetable roots in the sink after cutting the vegetables? What if they are left here and blocked? You should stop by when you are cleaning the cutting board. Cleaned it up?"

"It's been such a long time. It's been several hours since grandpa called, and you have no plan at all? Don't you have an idea? What do you want? I said you won't let me call. What do you want to do?"

He still finds excuses to reprimand, "It's so late, you don't even say a phone call if you don't come back, why don't you tell me that you are working overtime at the unit, do I need to notify in advance if I don't have a make-up class today? Dad, you don't even read my class schedule ?"

When I wash my hair in the morning, because there is no hot water, I will break the water spoon in a panic. Although I will regret it in my heart, it is still quite angry.When passing by the garbage station, he hesitated for a moment, feeling that his eyes were following him, but Jiang Jiang didn't turn around to look upstairs after all.

Hurting his father was not something he was willing to do, but if he didn't do it, his heart would burn like a fire.

Li Jia was a bit out of his mind, and Jiang Jiang would feel very sad if he spoke loudly to him.Resisting not to speak, Li Jia almost cried when Jiang Jiang asked again, "Jiang, don't do this, Dad is very uncomfortable."

Looking at his father who had lost weight rapidly in the past few days, Jiang Jiang turned his back and stopped talking.

Jiang Jiang's abnormal behavior frightened Li Jia often, afraid of yelling at him because of a little dissatisfaction.When I went to work with my bag in the morning, I saw Jiang Jiang coming out, and the hand holding the doorknob was frozen.Jiang Jiang's eyes looking up and down made Li Jia feel chills in his heart, "Dad, are you going to work? Then you go!" Jiang Jiang's gloomy mood infected Li Jia, and he repeatedly blamed himself, and even felt that he had placed a few days ago. The handkerchief in the trash can will make Jiang Jiang suspicious, reviewing his carelessness, and urgently need to communicate with Jiang Jiang.

It's just that some words can't be said, and Jiang Jiang also refuses any form of communication.

The weather was getting colder and colder. On a rainy day, Li Jia took the initiative to pick up Jiang Jiang from the cram school and brought his coat and raincoat.Jiang Jiang didn't say anything at the time, but asked him while sitting in the back seat, "Why don't you even wear gloves in such a cold day?"

Li Jia didn't know that at midnight, Jiang Jiang would hold his father's scarred hand and weep quietly, because the scar was splashed with oil.Just because he loves to eat fried eggplant boxes, Li Jia studied tirelessly. Jiang Jiang was moved and distressed by his father who didn't care about him so much.

For the lunch box at noon, Li Jia put his mind to every meal.

One morning, I saw my father wearing an apron, waving a rice spoon in front of the stove, cooking dishes that he was not good at.

Jiang Jiang hugged his father behind him, and pressed his cheek tightly behind his father's back, "Dad, don't be angry with me. I didn't do well in the test recently. I feel very sad."

Li Jia turned off the range hood, turned around to look at Jiang Jiang, "What did you say?"

Jiang Jiang put his stubborn arms around Li Jia's waist, and Li Jia patted Jiang Jiang's back lightly, "It's all right, Dad doesn't mind."

Jiang Jiang was sitting under the basketball hoop on the playground, and Dabao made the last shot, shaking the backboard.Put on your coat and throw your schoolbag over your shoulders, "Let's go?"

Jiang Jiang shook his head.

Dabao sat down next to him, "You don't play, what are you thinking about sitting here?"

Jiang Jiang glanced at him impatiently, "My dad is here to pick me up."

Dabao scratched his head, "Why does Uncle Li always come to pick you up?"

Jiang Jiang said to Li Jia in the morning, "Dad, pick me up from school at night, don't be late. Now there are hooligans from other schools who come to block students. They used to block girls from wanting friends. Now Even boys are blocked, and protection fees are charged, which is not safe."

Hearing such an excuse, Dabao opened his mouth slightly, and it took him a long time to let out a laugh, "You, you are really aha, don't you have a mommy boy now, so you are a daddy boy?" Jiang Jiang stared fiercely. After a glance, Dabao patted his buttocks, and wanted to leave embarrassingly, "Okay, then you wait for your father, and I will leave first."

Seeing Jiang Jiang sitting there with a gloomy face, Dabao leaned over again. Although this friend has a flawed personality, he is bitter and mean, and he always looks arrogant because of his good studies.But after getting along for so many years, I really can't bear to watch him suffocating and uncomfortable there, "Are you and your dad angry recently?" Jiang Jiang kept silent with a cold face, and the corners of his mouth were slightly wrinkled, as if he was feeling wronged.

This kind of Jiang Jiang is a bit pitiful. Dabao wanted to say something sarcastic, but he held back. He is not as unkind as Jiang Jiang.

At that time, Erbao was eight or nine years old, and his family's situation was not good. The supermarket was not profitable, and the backlog of items could not be sold, and a batch of counterfeit goods were sold.My mother is an honest businessman, and she does business with the neighbors around her. After throwing away the fake goods in boxes, she rides a small three-wheeler to look for sources of goods.

The young brother couldn't understand the family's difficulties, and would often get into trouble because the food on the dinner table was not as delicious as Uncle Li's.

The parents are middle-aged children, and compared with the parents of the students in the second insurance, they are naturally much older in appearance.My father runs transportation all the year round, and my mother has been running a small business. The two of them have been exposed to the wind and sun all year round. Their hands are stretched out, their joints are thick and their skin is dark, which makes Erbao unable to hold his head up among his classmates.

It's hateful not to be able to put yourself in the shoes of the family, but Dabao always feels that his brother is still so young, and he needs more education.Although I often beat my younger brother, I love him after all, and I will buy delicious snacks for my younger brother with the lunch money I save.

Once the school asked to pay a donation of [-] yuan, but the family said it was unnecessary, so they didn’t give it to him. The younger brother was the only one in the class who didn’t pay, and was punished by the teacher to stand for a class. Er Bao felt that he was humiliated among his classmates and cried aggrievedly. Yu Ji.

It is a fact that the family's cash flow is not good, and it is also a fact that local gangsters often come to steal goods. Even if it costs a lot to install a camera and change the lock, it is still worth the two yuan.It's just that the babysitter thinks that "the school always finds excuses to charge fees, and asks you for the bricks to build flower beds. It's too shameful to give them."

Erbao's self-esteem was frustrated, and under Dabao's persuasion, the quarrel became more violent, and he even wrote a suicide note and wanted to hang himself.

The shelves at home were often half-empty, and my mother was so busy with this, Dabao didn't dare to tell the family, so he urgently sought out a good friend to discuss and asked Jiang Jiang to persuade his younger brother.

As a result, in his small room, Jiang Jiang faced the serious-looking two brothers, and laughed after calmly reading Er Bao’s suicide note, “Anyway, you picked me up, so it’s not a pity to die. Haha, write It's ridiculous, and there are typos."

Erbao couldn't stand the stimulation, the child was ashamed and angry, took the braided rope, buckled it, tied it to an iron nail on the door, and was about to jump.

The diameter of the iron nail is one centimeter thick, and the rope is shiny with white silk.

Dabao originally thought that Jiang Jiang would say, "I'm sorry, brother shouldn't be laughing, Erbao, you should come down and calm down first."

In the end, what Jiang Jiang said was, "Such a thin rope has to be broken? Er Bao, are you sure this position is safe? What if your face hits the wall? It hurts!"

Erbao made up his mind to die, he jumped, the nail bent, and he fell to the ground with a bang.

When Dabao hurriedly helped his younger brother up, he rubbed his face and shoulders, Jiang Jiang patted his thigh and laughed until his stomach ached.

Da Bao despised Jiang Jiang's ignorance. The braided rope looked thin, but it was actually very strong, especially after the second Bao tied the knot.Second Bao smashed the nail straight and deep with a lock, and successfully hanged himself for the second time. He hung on the iron nail for three seconds without falling off. Jiang Jiang panicked and rushed over to rescue him with Da Bao.

Such a friend doesn’t take other people’s sufferings to heart, and always says, “What’s that? I can’t ignore this matter, and you’re too small-minded.” This made Er Bao touch the rope again.Dabao admits that Jiang Jiang matured earlier than children of the same age, but this almost mean attitude is too unsympathetic.He is still his good friend.

Today it was rare to see Jiang Jiang also lost his soul, and he wanted to say something about him, but he swallowed the words again. Jiang Jiang looked at his parents with envious eyes, and he couldn't say anything.

"That's all, what if your dad works overtime at the company? You can't just sit here, come home with me, my family has chicken wings today, they are very delicious." Jiang Jiang shook his head, his thin neck was like a chicken Shake to and fro.For a while, it was pitiful, like an abandoned orphan. For some reason, it reminded me of the little girl leaning against the corner to strike a match in Andersen's fairy tales.

Half an hour later, the two of them were the only ones sitting there in the playground. It was already too dark to see the people on the opposite side, so Li Jia came in a hurry, first went straight to the teaching building, and learned that the school was looking around.

Da Bao elbowed Jiang Jiang, "It's your father." "Uncle Li, we're here."

Oh, Li Jia came over and leaned over carefully, wiping the sweat from his forehead with a tissue. "Jiang Jiang, why are you sitting here? It's so cold. Go home!" Jiang Jiang flattened his mouth and Li Jia pulled his arm. "I worked overtime today. I came late. Don't be angry. I bought a roast duck for you." you eat."

Jiang Jiang stood up with his father dejectedly, looking dejected, like a puppy who failed to run away from home. Anyone who looked at it thought it was a pair of father and son who were at odds.Dabao smiled wryly. He didn't dare to show his temper to his father. His father would slap him so that he couldn't tell the difference between east, west, and north.

The image of Palin whispering through the door always comes to Li Jia's mind, and the scene of Jiang Jiang asking "Dad, what are you doing?" in a high-pitched voice is always rewinding.

Some time ago, Jiang Jiang asked ten questions and answered one sentence, obviously in a cold war, but now he has returned to the good and understanding son he used to be, and Li Jia's half-suspended heart slowly let go.

After Qian Peilin left for more than a month, Li Jia's heart was going crazy like grass.Realizing that I miss him, I miss him even more. When I met Palin again, I didn't expect to be together again. Every time I saw him, I felt that it was the last time we met.

Now if I don't see you for a day, it seems like three autumns have passed.For more than a month, Li Jia's heart was fried every day, and his son and Palin alternately occupied his mind.

The project of the unit has entered the settlement period, and Zhou Dazhi asked him what he was thinking when he was idle and looking out of the window.Li Jia smiled knowingly, "I want to ask for leave!"

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